I Do It For The Fans.
For all the girls…
- Who’ve ever been peeked at by the next door neighbor
- Whose father ever hit them
- Who were so sure they’d die by his hand
- Whose uncle ever held them too closely in a slow dance
- Whose uncles insisted on lap sitting and cheek biting with every encounter
- Who’ve worn bruises to school
- Who were inappropriately fondled, pinned or bitten by a male classmate
- Who’ve ever been hit on by clergy or the pious
- Who’ve ever had their occupation overheard by a man at church only to have him show up there and bang at the glass
- Whose boss has ever gotten too rough
- Whose boss has ever shoved them
- Whose boss has ever knocked them to the ground
- Whose boss has ever rubbed against or touched them inappropriately
- Whose boss has ever asked them inappropriate questions
- Whose boss has ever kissed them…twice
- Who’ve ever had to run or rush home
- Who’ve ever been followed home
- Whose had to change trains in route due to catcalling and harassment
- Who’ve been threatened for not returning another’s advances
- Who’ve ever been grabbed, swept up, and kissed an the street, by a stranger, uninvited
- Who’ve ever been groped in broad daylight at a public bus stop
- Who’ve ever been stalked
- Who’ve tried to leave a” friend”, been told they would be found, and seen it come to pass once they moved away
- Who’ve been told by their company that they “don’t know whether to hit/slap them or kiss/fuck them” on more than one occasion
- Who’ve ever been threatened with rape
- Who have been trapped in a relationship due to the emotional instability of their boyfriend (threat of suicide, etc)
- Who’ve been slammed against the wall
- Who’ve ever had to fight a guy off
- Who’ve ever had to throw a guy against the wall to deter him
- Who’ve ever had to sweep a guy’s feet from under him with a kick to get the upper hand in a struggle
- Whose packed on the pounds to hide and be less noticeable
- Who’ve ever hated being considered attractive due to additional complications
- Who’ve ever felt cursed for all their luck
- Who’ve experienced all this and more…
I’ve gotta fight this. Swim. Fight. Breathe. It took me a minute to get it. I thought of any encouragement I’ve ever been given when I’ve been shattered like this. It always starts with “you can’t ______ you’re too strong…” or something of the like. Half of it is from what they’ve seen and know. The other half is because of what they need.
It’s about more than me, and it always has been. I have something that a lot of people from both genders can’t stand…though I recognize it initially. It is this thing/these things that have been the undiscovered foundation for what I had no idea I was trying to build…all these years…as long as I can remember. That isn’t a contradiction. It’s retrospect.
What’s left? Twenty-seven days. Aside from that…kicking. Breathing. Swimming. Waiting Biding my time as I prepare to surface.
Some say the end is near.
Some say we’ll see Armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this
Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks
Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call la
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. Any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I’ll see you down in Arizona bay.
Fret for your figure and
Fret for your latte and
Fret for your lawsuit and
Fret for your hairpiece and
Fret for your Prozac and
Fret for your pilot and
Fret for your cable and
Fret for your car.
It’s a
Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks
Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call la
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. any fucking day.
Learn to swim, I’ll see you down in Arizona bay.
Some say a comet will fall from the sky.
Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still.
Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.
Some say the end is near.
Some say we’ll see Armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will cuz
I sure could use a vacation from this
Silly shit, stupid shit...
One great big festering neon distraction,
I’ve a suggestion to keep you all occupied.
Learn to swim.
Mom’s gonna fix it all soon.
Mom’s comin’ round to put it back the way it ought to be.
Learn to swim.
Fuck L Ron Hubbard and
Fuck all his clones.
Fuck all those gun-toting
Hip gangster wannabes.
Learn to swim.
Fuck retro anything.
Fuck your tattoos.
Fuck all you junkies and
Fuck your short memory.
Learn to swim.
Fuck smiley glad-hands
With hidden agendas.
Fuck these dysfunctional,
Insecure actresses.
Learn to swim.
Cuz I’m praying for rain
And I’m praying for tidal waves
I wanna see the ground give way.
I wanna watch it all go down.
Mom please flush it all away.
I wanna watch it go right in and down.
I wanna watch it go right in.
Watch you flush it all away.
Time to bring it down again.
Don’t just call me pessimist.
Try and read between the lines.
I can’t imagine why you wouldn’t
Welcome any change, my friend.
I wanna see it all come down.
K.