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Well damn it's been a long time but I really just need to put a few things out of my head. My life has changed so much so fast...
I've pushed people away and pulled people to me, I've starting getting things ready to start school, I'm trying to make my life the way I want it. I'm got some great people in my life now and things are really starting to look up for me, but I've hurt some people who meant a lot to me when doing so. To those people.....I'm very sorry, I've been selfish but these things I've done I really needed to do. I have been walking around being so untrue to myself that I really started to hate my life and the people in it. I never came to terms with things that I needed to look at head on, losing the base of my family in the span of a year really made me crumble and only one person really saw how broken and lost I was. I never delt with a few other things either in my life that I would love to talk about but I'm not that ready to do so right now. Just know that I never meant to hurt guys. I'm sure I've said it to you before but I mean it now. I'm really starting to grow up because I want to and not because I have to. Most of you know that I had to grow up really fast but it was all kinda a show. No I see where I went wrong and I'm really trying to fix it all. I dont want any hard feelings and would love to have you all in my life but its kinda hard for me now a days. Anyways I'm sorry again for hurting anyone in this crazy way I have had to go about finding myself once more.
I've pushed people away and pulled people to me, I've starting getting things ready to start school, I'm trying to make my life the way I want it. I'm got some great people in my life now and things are really starting to look up for me, but I've hurt some people who meant a lot to me when doing so. To those people.....I'm very sorry, I've been selfish but these things I've done I really needed to do. I have been walking around being so untrue to myself that I really started to hate my life and the people in it. I never came to terms with things that I needed to look at head on, losing the base of my family in the span of a year really made me crumble and only one person really saw how broken and lost I was. I never delt with a few other things either in my life that I would love to talk about but I'm not that ready to do so right now. Just know that I never meant to hurt guys. I'm sure I've said it to you before but I mean it now. I'm really starting to grow up because I want to and not because I have to. Most of you know that I had to grow up really fast but it was all kinda a show. No I see where I went wrong and I'm really trying to fix it all. I dont want any hard feelings and would love to have you all in my life but its kinda hard for me now a days. Anyways I'm sorry again for hurting anyone in this crazy way I have had to go about finding myself once more.