• Caught in Turmoil
• Caught in Turmoil
Lust and Sloth, quite the pair. While Lust embodies a passion to experience all there is at once. Sloth is hardly motivated to experience anything at all. The French have a term for "joy for life"; I read it earlier and cannot find it again. I have it. I hate being weighed down, held back, I am an explosion; everywhere at once. I want to -be-.
Lately I feel taken for granted. That all I do is for naught, and those I give the most to are under appreciated. I feel like I am spinning my wheels at 110% all-the-while that is considered the bare minimum. I give, and give, and really cannot give more than I am. I am not indecisive, I think of things to do, I know what I want, and I do my best to only complain when I think it will affect change or I am powerless to change the situation myself.
Initiative; you either have it or you don't. I don't think it stems from a fear or apprehension -of- acting, rather there is no incentive or drive to act at all. This is worrisome and disheartening.
The sick thing is this is how I -feel-; and as retarded and hippy-like as it sounds, I know there are a few that won't like how I feel, and will allow my feeling to hurt their feelings. How silly and selfish, these are my feelings. Don't go making this about you. This is not a personal attack on anyone, merely an observation. Poise your reaction carefully and make sure your explanations do not sound like excuses.
More to come (I have to eat).
Lust and Sloth, quite the pair. While Lust embodies a passion to experience all there is at once. Sloth is hardly motivated to experience anything at all. The French have a term for "joy for life"; I read it earlier and cannot find it again. I have it. I hate being weighed down, held back, I am an explosion; everywhere at once. I want to -be-.
Lately I feel taken for granted. That all I do is for naught, and those I give the most to are under appreciated. I feel like I am spinning my wheels at 110% all-the-while that is considered the bare minimum. I give, and give, and really cannot give more than I am. I am not indecisive, I think of things to do, I know what I want, and I do my best to only complain when I think it will affect change or I am powerless to change the situation myself.
Initiative; you either have it or you don't. I don't think it stems from a fear or apprehension -of- acting, rather there is no incentive or drive to act at all. This is worrisome and disheartening.
The sick thing is this is how I -feel-; and as retarded and hippy-like as it sounds, I know there are a few that won't like how I feel, and will allow my feeling to hurt their feelings. How silly and selfish, these are my feelings. Don't go making this about you. This is not a personal attack on anyone, merely an observation. Poise your reaction carefully and make sure your explanations do not sound like excuses.
More to come (I have to eat).