Nov 01, 2005 03:03
• You push it away and it all comes back again.
The night ended with the cops coming. I had to call them. The details don't matter. This is for my record. This begins a new chapter of my life. Unfortunately.
"I hope you know that god is watching". A line people use who, don't know God and, need to have some conviction to fuel their pride. In a few words my relationship with the girl I love is over. She is just capable of going off the handle and being physically abusive as the next person. The problem is a mixture mental instability, and medication, and booze. The world rolled over and farted tonight. She gets a new job, and goes crazy all in the same night.
Halloween, a time to foster hatred and let those malicious spirits that will rule you do so. When you open your mind, and your heart, and your soul; then you open you being to forces you cannot control.
I have to go for now. I cannot even focus right now. This hurts.
I listened to her voice-mails ALL the way through; after her cops took her home. She is boasting that she "Didn't press charges against" me; cuz she loves me. What she was too drunk to realize is that she was never given the opportunity to press charges. For once the cops rightfully took my side.
*sigh* I give up.
-Andrew
"Ol' Emo-Face Nigga"
halloween,
pain,
doom,
anna