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Today's one of those Hey!-let's-wake-up-on-the-wrong-side-of-the-bed-and-slip-the-second-our-feet-touches-the-floor shit days. Not that that actually happened. It occurred figuratively.
I could be worse. But things just have been kind of not okay lately. Mainly with me & myself. Can't exactly say I've been trying too hard. Okay, so I guess this will just be one of those figuring myself out entries. Prepare for a lot of mumble jumble.
The lists of things I should do is immense. Have I been doing them? Er. No. Why? Er. Because I don't feel like. The thing is I avoid thinking about things that give me stress, so I postpone them. But I know time is an issue, so the more I postpone, the more stressed I get. And voila, you have a vicious cycle. Breaking the cycle won't be of extreme difficulty, all I have to do is, you know, start doing and stop avoiding. Like college research & apps. I'd rather do summer homework than that. Doing something of less importance at least makes me feel like I'm not wasting my time, even though the more important thing is not getting any progress. Horrible, horrible way of placating myself.
Lol. Yeah. And I should write more. I'm losing coherence. :( Prepare for posts about nothing & everything! Things I hate/love/don't care about. :D I love my flist. <3
I could be worse. But things just have been kind of not okay lately. Mainly with me & myself. Can't exactly say I've been trying too hard. Okay, so I guess this will just be one of those figuring myself out entries. Prepare for a lot of mumble jumble.
The lists of things I should do is immense. Have I been doing them? Er. No. Why? Er. Because I don't feel like. The thing is I avoid thinking about things that give me stress, so I postpone them. But I know time is an issue, so the more I postpone, the more stressed I get. And voila, you have a vicious cycle. Breaking the cycle won't be of extreme difficulty, all I have to do is, you know, start doing and stop avoiding. Like college research & apps. I'd rather do summer homework than that. Doing something of less importance at least makes me feel like I'm not wasting my time, even though the more important thing is not getting any progress. Horrible, horrible way of placating myself.
Lol. Yeah. And I should write more. I'm losing coherence. :( Prepare for posts about nothing & everything! Things I hate/love/don't care about. :D I love my flist. <3