extremely busy
So. It's been awhile. I've been extremely busy with work...being a case manager is a very stressful job. I don't know if I'm coming or going half the time. It's alot of stress on me especially with after what I went through in February with finding my consumer dead and dealing with Post tramautic Stress Disorder. That was probably the hardest thing that I went through with my life along with my car accident but with my accident it was different....it was only dealing with me and not being here..I actually walked in and saw her dead with my own eyes. That is extremely hard for me to deal with. I had nightmares for week and I cried my eyes out I couldnt tell you how long. I got through that thank god. I still have my job and I'm doing such an amazing job with my job...I get told all the time how good I'm doing with everything at work (: I'm a good little unit maker that's for sure and I get good rapport with consumers which is an added bonus. My consumers actually want to see me once a week because they all love me and I'm a happy person so I really make their day when I see them. (: It makes me feel good especially with the younger kids who just adore me. IT makes me feel like I'm doing my job. I just love my job so much. It's such a great experience and I am so grateful to my supervisors for giving me this chance to be able to work at the guidance center and be a case manager. They took a huge leap of faith with me and I will always be grateful that they gave me this chance to show my true colors(:
My personal life..uhhh I have NONE. Yup. It's pretty sad. I'm 31 years old and I have no fucking personal life. I really need to get a boyfriend. I just wish that I would get a boyfriend soo because I need to feel loved too. I don't know what to think about Jeffery. I really like him but it's like come on already do you like me or not do you want to be with me or not...cause I'm not getting any younger. I mean it's not that far. It's only about a hour and a half away. If he's worried about the distance then he should just tell me and not get my hopes up but I think it's a little late for that :-\ I don't know I really like him. I thought we connected on a communication level but I guess I was wrong but we'll see I guess. I'm talking to this other kid..his name is Matt. He's 34. He's a really nice guy. He also lives in Pittsburgh. What is it with guys living far from me..god. I just want to be loved so much by a guy. Why isnt it happening for me? I look at Matt my ex all the time and I think how he can be happy when I'm still single. I didnt do anything to him but yet he's happy and have a girlfriend and I'm still single and looking for love. I just thought I'd have someone by now.....I really wish I did. I could use a boyfriend to cuddle with, to kiss, to hold, to do stuff with. My best friend Josh he'll be leaving in December..he is seriously like my lifeline. I can't believe he's moving to Florida with Dr G. I'm going to be so lost without him when he leaves. I seriously don't know what I'm going to do without him. I wish he would stay around here until I get a boyfriend..haha. I'm going to miss him so so so much!!! (-: It's not fair!!
I just wish GOD would give me a boyfriend soon or some kind of sign from Jeffery that he does want to pursue a relationship with me. I just wish that something would happen soon. I was so hoping I'd have a boyfriend to take to the beach with me this year but I guess that's not going to happen. UGH! I seriously hate my life...no personal fucking life what so ever. WHEN? I just want a boyfriend. I waited 21 years for Matt to be brought in my life. I don't have 21 years to wait for someone new....I'm already 31. I want a boyfriend now. I want to have kids one day soon. I want to be married. I want to share my life with someone so bad. I really want to have a kid here soon....I have to find someone first to do that with. I just hope it comes soon because I'm literally going crazy if I don't find someone soon.
xoxo
peace out
My personal life..uhhh I have NONE. Yup. It's pretty sad. I'm 31 years old and I have no fucking personal life. I really need to get a boyfriend. I just wish that I would get a boyfriend soo because I need to feel loved too. I don't know what to think about Jeffery. I really like him but it's like come on already do you like me or not do you want to be with me or not...cause I'm not getting any younger. I mean it's not that far. It's only about a hour and a half away. If he's worried about the distance then he should just tell me and not get my hopes up but I think it's a little late for that :-\ I don't know I really like him. I thought we connected on a communication level but I guess I was wrong but we'll see I guess. I'm talking to this other kid..his name is Matt. He's 34. He's a really nice guy. He also lives in Pittsburgh. What is it with guys living far from me..god. I just want to be loved so much by a guy. Why isnt it happening for me? I look at Matt my ex all the time and I think how he can be happy when I'm still single. I didnt do anything to him but yet he's happy and have a girlfriend and I'm still single and looking for love. I just thought I'd have someone by now.....I really wish I did. I could use a boyfriend to cuddle with, to kiss, to hold, to do stuff with. My best friend Josh he'll be leaving in December..he is seriously like my lifeline. I can't believe he's moving to Florida with Dr G. I'm going to be so lost without him when he leaves. I seriously don't know what I'm going to do without him. I wish he would stay around here until I get a boyfriend..haha. I'm going to miss him so so so much!!! (-: It's not fair!!
I just wish GOD would give me a boyfriend soon or some kind of sign from Jeffery that he does want to pursue a relationship with me. I just wish that something would happen soon. I was so hoping I'd have a boyfriend to take to the beach with me this year but I guess that's not going to happen. UGH! I seriously hate my life...no personal fucking life what so ever. WHEN? I just want a boyfriend. I waited 21 years for Matt to be brought in my life. I don't have 21 years to wait for someone new....I'm already 31. I want a boyfriend now. I want to have kids one day soon. I want to be married. I want to share my life with someone so bad. I really want to have a kid here soon....I have to find someone first to do that with. I just hope it comes soon because I'm literally going crazy if I don't find someone soon.
xoxo
peace out