"Every night I pray that soon your face will fade away..."
It's funny how when your a kid, you think that you really do know everything. I mean I know I always did... and to an extent I still do. You think that you know how someone feels when they do certain things or how they feel when they go through certain experiences, but you never really do. And then you think that you can somehow fix everything when stuff goes wrong, and then you finally realize that not everything is in your control! Its messed up. Like why can't things ever be as easy as it was when we were in high school. Yeah, you had the drama, but life really wasn't that hard. I always wished that I could hurry up and be an adult and be married and happy and work and no more school. But, I dont want that yet. I am not ready. I have an advantage because I am still in school, and now I am single again, and it does stink, and I really wish things could be different, because I really did love Rob. Well, I still love him, but just not in a romantical sense because I can't. But, I can't just keep looking for someone new, and I just can't sit here and sulk in my depressions of being single agian, I will go insane. But what I can do is take advantage of what I have. I am lucky I have a good family and I was never placed in a foster homes like the kids I see on a daily basis. I am lucky I have the friends I do have. I am lucky that I go to a pretty good school, and no matter how expensive it is, my parents will always find a way for me to get there. But with the new year approaching, I am pretty happy that it will be a new start. I went through a lot in 2004. I plan on going though a lot more in 2005. But ya know... its okay... things are never that bad in the end.