all time low...
well it's possible ...i've reached a new low. i didnt think it will be possible but when people stab you in the back it helps bring you there. i just dont understand some people i just dont. i have confirmed though that girls are the most evil things on this planet..acctually ever. they are pure evil. with the exception of one girl. i just dont get how so much lying takes place. i dont get how rumors are so neccessary to start about people. i dont get it. why does that happen. no one understands me. the best advice i have is never to trust anyone. you cant. it's impossible. no body has morals including myself. this isnt a cocky statement cuz i cant be trusted either. well in certain ways i can but others not. i wish i was better. i wish i wasnt me. i wish that i knew everything and could never be confused. i wish that i was dead. i wish iwasnt. i hate everyone...including myself. why could everone uderstand her? what did everyone know what she was going through and not me. why do i have to be the horrible one? why can everyone else screw up as much as they possibly want to and never have to deal with any of this? there are so many worse people than me yet i always get the brunt of it all. she did so much worse that i did and yet i am the worst. i hate this. but i guess it's my fault i dug my own grave. and it was easier than i thought. i want to leave and get out of hear as soon as i can ...i wish i was leaving now. i want to bury my head and cry and never stop untill i cant cry anymore. i want to run away to somewhere i've never heard of and where no one knows me. become a whole different person and have a whole new life. one day i will look back on this and realize it wasnt that big of a horrible thing. but for now..it is. and it's a new all time low...