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Okay. So its 416am... and I still havent slept... Just not my night i suppose. My dog keeps kicking in his sleep.. my cat is snoring and all I can think about is how badly i want sex... Kinda awkward not gunna lie.. even writing about this. I am so ridiculously fired up for sex right now and my bf is sooooooo far away... i suppose the distance could be much farther... but still 4.5hrs is too much. He is sick too which is really sad. I have no idea how to get to sleep. I have tried reading, listening to music... talking to people till 2.. fighting with my roomate and now writing. I doubt this will work either because I am not tired anymore. My body is shaking tho.
So Kiwi called tonight. She is finally in town and we are going to have lunch on Saturday. I am so nervous. I havent seen her in two years... last place... Laura's porch. Just her voice alone makes my nervs go heywire. When her and I hung up tonight i puked. Its not that she makes me sick.. god no. I just.. have this nervous habit now that I puke when I get really uptight. I am trying to predict what I will say when I go pick her up. I really dont wanna think about it but i know I will. Maybe that is why I cant sleep.
I hate hanging up with Jus at night. It makes me sad. I feel like I am so far away from him. I just want to roll over and have him be next to me. But he's not. Instead I have my cat next to my head and my dog Kolby at my feet.
And now to top it all off my monitor is squeeling like a pig at slaughter. >.< Its going to be a long day
<3J.J
So Kiwi called tonight. She is finally in town and we are going to have lunch on Saturday. I am so nervous. I havent seen her in two years... last place... Laura's porch. Just her voice alone makes my nervs go heywire. When her and I hung up tonight i puked. Its not that she makes me sick.. god no. I just.. have this nervous habit now that I puke when I get really uptight. I am trying to predict what I will say when I go pick her up. I really dont wanna think about it but i know I will. Maybe that is why I cant sleep.
I hate hanging up with Jus at night. It makes me sad. I feel like I am so far away from him. I just want to roll over and have him be next to me. But he's not. Instead I have my cat next to my head and my dog Kolby at my feet.
And now to top it all off my monitor is squeeling like a pig at slaughter. >.< Its going to be a long day
<3J.J