May 31, 2007 00:10
I'm kinda unhappy/worried about a lot of things right now
-school: I dropped my education courses, but still have no idea what I want out of life. I don't know what I have to do for grad school, because I don't know where I want to go. and the university is no help because they just tell us to look online. thanks guys. and that professor who I was interested in working with never emailed me back. so I don’t know about that...
-Joe: same old stuff, different day. things are slightly better than they have been, but not by much..
-job: no ones calling me back. awesome.
-myself: I'm feeling super gross and bloated/fat from sitting on my butt doing nothing. I want to go to the gym, but I hurt my knee when we were moving and I'm still not really up to doing anything that physical with it yet. and I hate feeling this unproductive, but I don't have a job yet and I have nothing to do. so I sit in the house while everyone else is at work feel like a slacker. and not in a good way.
-puppies: not happening. Joe has his heart set on doxies, which is fine, but they are impossible to find for under $500 around here. and neither one of use can afford this. So no puppy love for me. not unexpected, but really disappointing nonetheless.
-birthday: my 21st is rapidly approaching but I don’t even know who’s going to be around. and strangely enough I'm not really looking forward to it. my birthdays always seem to suck (last year's taking the cake). guess I'm just not up for a repeat.
I know its impossible to get everything fixed... but I'd really like the school and the job part down. I hate feeling helpless when it comes to aspects of my own life.