...at the end of my rope not sure if anyone's there to catch me...
My heart is breaking.
I can't believe I'm actually typing, I've been writing the goodbye letter for several hours and I'm still not done. I'm not done wading through the memories. I'm not done with all the things I have to say before I let it all go and move on. Move on... I'm not even sure to what. I guess just worrying about myself.
I just need to keep doing something, keep moving, keep myself busy or else... or else, I don't know. I just wish you could have made up your mind. I wish you would tell me the truth. I wish this wouldn't happen again. I wish it could've gone differently. I wish I didn't have to lose you.
But I did.
Two times in two years. It's no wonder I've lost so much weight. Maybe by the next one I'll disappear.
I can't be in my skin right now.
I can't believe I'm actually typing, I've been writing the goodbye letter for several hours and I'm still not done. I'm not done wading through the memories. I'm not done with all the things I have to say before I let it all go and move on. Move on... I'm not even sure to what. I guess just worrying about myself.
I just need to keep doing something, keep moving, keep myself busy or else... or else, I don't know. I just wish you could have made up your mind. I wish you would tell me the truth. I wish this wouldn't happen again. I wish it could've gone differently. I wish I didn't have to lose you.
But I did.
Two times in two years. It's no wonder I've lost so much weight. Maybe by the next one I'll disappear.
I can't be in my skin right now.