Can't. Get. Out. Of. This. Funk.
Come check out the new movie, Asshole starring me, Rob. Showtimes were all day, today.
All I did was drink this weekend. And then sit around playing video games. And I saw a lot of people, many of which I love. But all I want to do is disappear. It's all I ever want to do. I don't want to sleep. I hate going to sleep these days. There used to be days when I longed to hit the pillow. The loneliness really begins to sink in at night.
I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want this empty feeling. Maybe I can leave it out with the trash on Tuesday.
Because it's slowly going to drown me. Or at least it feels like it will. Nothing can kill it.
Last weekend was a fun and tiring weekend, this weekend had it's moments. We even got a shout about last weekend in The Alibi from our crashing the Crawl. But still...
Tell me it's worth it. Tell me it's going to be okay. Tell me there are beautiful things in this world. Tell me there are still things that deserve to be fought for.
I need to be reminded sometimes, especially lately.
I thought I needed a vacation from everyone, but I really need a vacation from my head and my life.
ADDENDUM - 3:11AM
There's a black ant that keeps crawling up the wall near my computer. He's been at it for hours. He crawls up and then falls and he keeps trying to get on the ceiling, for what, I have no idea. He just fell off again. And still he tries.
All I did was drink this weekend. And then sit around playing video games. And I saw a lot of people, many of which I love. But all I want to do is disappear. It's all I ever want to do. I don't want to sleep. I hate going to sleep these days. There used to be days when I longed to hit the pillow. The loneliness really begins to sink in at night.
I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want this empty feeling. Maybe I can leave it out with the trash on Tuesday.
Because it's slowly going to drown me. Or at least it feels like it will. Nothing can kill it.
Last weekend was a fun and tiring weekend, this weekend had it's moments. We even got a shout about last weekend in The Alibi from our crashing the Crawl. But still...
Tell me it's worth it. Tell me it's going to be okay. Tell me there are beautiful things in this world. Tell me there are still things that deserve to be fought for.
I need to be reminded sometimes, especially lately.
I thought I needed a vacation from everyone, but I really need a vacation from my head and my life.
ADDENDUM - 3:11AM
There's a black ant that keeps crawling up the wall near my computer. He's been at it for hours. He crawls up and then falls and he keeps trying to get on the ceiling, for what, I have no idea. He just fell off again. And still he tries.