Back in action...
Well... even though I know no one has really kept up writing in these things for at least a semester now, I've decided that I will start mine back up again (well...for the winter break anyway). Really, I've been up for about a week now way later than I need to be, but I've been staying up anyway... mostly just chatting with Randi. And Randi's been looking through all of her xangas and diaries and I dunno what else, but she's been giving me lil tidbits here and there and it has me wanting to write again. She started off givin me a bunch of facts from her 25 Facts About Randi list, which has since evolved to more than 40 I think. And, well, without any further explanation, I've started writing little facts and thoughts about myself now. So yeah, I'll be sharing those every once in a while I think. Anyway, what should I write about today?
I think I’ll write about my last night at Oxy last semester, its still fresh enough in my mind so that I remember it in really good detail (even considering the drunken splendor I was in... yes, splendor).
Ok well, first off, that day I woke up after a night of drinking with the freshmen (or first years,whatever) and Punam. Fuck it, lets just start with the second to last night at Oxy. Basically all that needs to really be mentioned is the fact that a good portion of the friends I have made this year are freshmen. They all live in my hall, and are close neighbors, so its no surprise that I have, umm, bonded with them (bonded sounds weird, but it is appropriate). I feel weird when I‘m with them, one the one hand, I have a blast acting a fool with them, and oddly enough it reminds me of all that stupid fun I had with my closest friends my freshmen year. Stayin up late at night supposedly doing homework in the lobby, eating taco truck, writing papers, those were really good times and I’m real glad I can sorta have fun times like that again.
On the other hand tho, I feel like an old man! How fuckin sad is it that a Junior hangs out with mostly just freshmen in his dorm? Even while I’m havin a great time laughing and livin it up with these new friends, I can’t help but reflect on the fact that I’m two years older than all of them. I’d like to say they just see me as another friend, lke the rest of them, but I feel like I might be looked at as that older, wiser, knowledgable friend. Sure, i love bein the wise-man, like every time something is wrong with the group, or someone is drunk off their asses, I tend to be the one lookin out and talking to the person. Also, I keep catching myself saying things like “yeah, my first year I...”, which is pretty much equivalent to saying “back in my day...”...how sad. Also, it just makes me reflect on why I DON’T have any friends my age in my dorm. One quick explanation is that they are all douches. But that is just not true, only half of them are. The upperclassmen who’s company I enjoy are already established in their closest friendships. People like Jon, Jacob, Sean, Nathan, Dwight, Ryan, Tope, Danny, etc etc already have their clicks set, so its only natural that I was only able to fit into a freshman click that hadnt been completely formed yet. But yeah, its just...weird lol.
Also, its not like I’m really IN the freshmen click, nor do I really want to be. I have my click that I’ve been mostly happy with since my start at Oxy, and I’m happy to stick with them. But still, it’s great that im in this freshmen click ENOUGH to have someone to hang out with no matter what I wanna do.
Simply put, I have a lot more friends this year than ever before. And, also simply put, it’s because of Pauley. BUT, its also because of NOT having Pauley when i first got here. If I had been in Pauley since the get go, I would not have been introduced to the greatest group of friends I’ve ever had (sorry high school friends if you’re reading this, but...it’s true). Sure, some times i regret not having had the pauley lifestyle these past years, but I’m glad I was able to experience college without it. Now, I have the best of both worlds. I have Pauley and have made Pauley clear that it has me. And, I have connections outside of pauley so that I’m not limited to it, like I feel so many others are (not that that’s bad or anything). Oh and by the way, to all you non-Oxy people, Pauley is the hall I live in, I probably should’ve specified that earlier.
Hmmm, my cousins from Mexico have just arrived, so I should probably go and be cousinly. Soooo yeah, I’ma have to call it an early night and an incomplete journal. Don’t worry though, tomorrow i’ll try to cover my last night. Peace.
I think I’ll write about my last night at Oxy last semester, its still fresh enough in my mind so that I remember it in really good detail (even considering the drunken splendor I was in... yes, splendor).
Ok well, first off, that day I woke up after a night of drinking with the freshmen (or first years,whatever) and Punam. Fuck it, lets just start with the second to last night at Oxy. Basically all that needs to really be mentioned is the fact that a good portion of the friends I have made this year are freshmen. They all live in my hall, and are close neighbors, so its no surprise that I have, umm, bonded with them (bonded sounds weird, but it is appropriate). I feel weird when I‘m with them, one the one hand, I have a blast acting a fool with them, and oddly enough it reminds me of all that stupid fun I had with my closest friends my freshmen year. Stayin up late at night supposedly doing homework in the lobby, eating taco truck, writing papers, those were really good times and I’m real glad I can sorta have fun times like that again.
On the other hand tho, I feel like an old man! How fuckin sad is it that a Junior hangs out with mostly just freshmen in his dorm? Even while I’m havin a great time laughing and livin it up with these new friends, I can’t help but reflect on the fact that I’m two years older than all of them. I’d like to say they just see me as another friend, lke the rest of them, but I feel like I might be looked at as that older, wiser, knowledgable friend. Sure, i love bein the wise-man, like every time something is wrong with the group, or someone is drunk off their asses, I tend to be the one lookin out and talking to the person. Also, I keep catching myself saying things like “yeah, my first year I...”, which is pretty much equivalent to saying “back in my day...”...how sad. Also, it just makes me reflect on why I DON’T have any friends my age in my dorm. One quick explanation is that they are all douches. But that is just not true, only half of them are. The upperclassmen who’s company I enjoy are already established in their closest friendships. People like Jon, Jacob, Sean, Nathan, Dwight, Ryan, Tope, Danny, etc etc already have their clicks set, so its only natural that I was only able to fit into a freshman click that hadnt been completely formed yet. But yeah, its just...weird lol.
Also, its not like I’m really IN the freshmen click, nor do I really want to be. I have my click that I’ve been mostly happy with since my start at Oxy, and I’m happy to stick with them. But still, it’s great that im in this freshmen click ENOUGH to have someone to hang out with no matter what I wanna do.
Simply put, I have a lot more friends this year than ever before. And, also simply put, it’s because of Pauley. BUT, its also because of NOT having Pauley when i first got here. If I had been in Pauley since the get go, I would not have been introduced to the greatest group of friends I’ve ever had (sorry high school friends if you’re reading this, but...it’s true). Sure, some times i regret not having had the pauley lifestyle these past years, but I’m glad I was able to experience college without it. Now, I have the best of both worlds. I have Pauley and have made Pauley clear that it has me. And, I have connections outside of pauley so that I’m not limited to it, like I feel so many others are (not that that’s bad or anything). Oh and by the way, to all you non-Oxy people, Pauley is the hall I live in, I probably should’ve specified that earlier.
Hmmm, my cousins from Mexico have just arrived, so I should probably go and be cousinly. Soooo yeah, I’ma have to call it an early night and an incomplete journal. Don’t worry though, tomorrow i’ll try to cover my last night. Peace.