Anyone else...
Have to purge once a day just to feel calm? Like I won't binge out of control but I have to "allow" myself one purge in order to keep everything else under control.
I dunno maybe I'm not making any sense. It was just a realization of a "ritual" or habit I've developed in the 8 years I've been bulimic and never realized it until just now. I wonder if its part of me not letting myself leave Mia completely but nonetheless it helps me keep calm with being a stay at home mom with a husband who's always at work so it's almost like being a single mom. I don't hold it against my husband cuz he is working two jobs. I dunno I'm rambling.