Sleep...yeah right
I'm sitting here thinking of everything that is bugging me...not such a good idea. I'm now all wrapped up in my head :o( I hate this. Once again I can't be happy for now. Just when things start to get a little bit better, it comes crashing down ten times harder. Today some shit went down and there is no need to get into that, it's something that I don't want a lot of people knowing about...so I keep my mouth shut. Seems like I'm really good at that, not telling people what's goin on, how I feel, nothing. I guess when one more thing goes wrong everything else that's been bugging me comes back even worse. I've became ridiculous to myself for somethings that I don't want to share also. I guess keeping people in the dark is all I can do...it's all I know how to do. I don't even know what else to write about, I'm almost to the point of getting upset, so I guess I need to just stop because I'm so fucking sick of getting upset. I swear I went for years without a tear, and now it seems I can't go a couple days without one...hell who am I kidding it's a lot for that matter. My dog just came up, gave me a kiss, then went into my room to lay down that made me feel a little bit better. Tonight I wasn't the greatest person to be around...sorry honey for putting you through that. Seeing you did make me feel a little better, but the way I am lately I don't think anything could. Well no I take that back...A LOT of things could change, but never will so I just need to stop dreaming of my "perfect world" it will NEVER happen.