Ya'll know
I'm crazy right?
Or perhaps I should say some of ya'll remember when I was the Mayor of Crazytown? Yeah, it wasn't pretty. But I worked hard and learned some skills and got better.
But that isn't the right way to phrase it.
I'm not better - I've learned skills and learned to manage. I'm still crazy. Part of the reason I'm still overweight is that crazy. All the same tapes, all the same beliefs still lurk in the recesses of my psyche. I've written over some, am working on others, but sometimes the original message bleeds through.
Crazy doesn't go away. Crazy is a lifetime of making choices to NOT go down the road to that condo in Crazytown again.
Crazy is way easier than sane. Somedays it doesn't seem worth it to keep trying. Somedays I just wanna roll around on the floor and kick and flail.
But that didn't work out so well the first time - so I just keep plugging along...
Wish I could get a tax writeoff for that condo though...
Or perhaps I should say some of ya'll remember when I was the Mayor of Crazytown? Yeah, it wasn't pretty. But I worked hard and learned some skills and got better.
But that isn't the right way to phrase it.
I'm not better - I've learned skills and learned to manage. I'm still crazy. Part of the reason I'm still overweight is that crazy. All the same tapes, all the same beliefs still lurk in the recesses of my psyche. I've written over some, am working on others, but sometimes the original message bleeds through.
Crazy doesn't go away. Crazy is a lifetime of making choices to NOT go down the road to that condo in Crazytown again.
Crazy is way easier than sane. Somedays it doesn't seem worth it to keep trying. Somedays I just wanna roll around on the floor and kick and flail.
But that didn't work out so well the first time - so I just keep plugging along...
Wish I could get a tax writeoff for that condo though...