i can't seem to stop shaking
It's been so long since I've posted anything in here. I forgot that I actually had a livejournal. I've decided to just link this page on my myspace so people can peruse at their own risk.
I've been really sad lately. There really is no better word to use; nothing more descript or specific is needed. Three simple letters...s-a-d. I think Why am I sad you ask? Basically I have lost my best friend. I haven't needed to charge my phone in three days...that's how bad it is. I try to be optimistic, but that really has never gotten me anywhere in the past.
On top of that I have so much work to do. 2 papers due by the end of this week. So I should be doing that. Having work has helped me a little bit. I can focus and forget things for about an hour, write a page or 2, then I'm back inside my own head again.
I'll be heading to starbucks in a few to work on an outline. In a way these survey things are a compulsion...or a distraction... Let's write about some of the mundanities of my life and I might feel better. Or maybe it's just a call for attention...these things usually are. We're all exhibitionists in our own right.
9 lasts
last time you had sex:-------last night
last beverage:--------------diet coke
last kiss:---------------------this morning
last movie seen:------------parts of the negotiator
last phone call:-------------casey
last cd played:-------------BNL Maroon
last bubble bath:-----------no idea
last time you cried:---------in the car on my way home from campus
8 have you evers.
have you ever dated one of your best friends: not really
have you ever skinny dipped: yeah
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: nah...kisses aren't really regrettable
have you ever fallen in love: yep
have you ever lost someone you loved: yep
been in love with someone that LIED to u and denied it!: not to my knowledge
have you ever been depressed: professional help is forthcoming
have you ever been drunk and threw up: yeah, chardonnay is physically painful the second time around
7 states you've been to.
PA, NY, NJ, MD, DE, VA, WVA, IL, IN, OH, GA, FL, SC, NC, NV, MA, AZ
6 things you've done today.
1. listened to NPR
2. worked on a powerpoint
3. checked e-mail a couple hundred times
4. cried
5. ate a really good turkey burger (my first meal in a while)
6. thought about materialistic paradigms in archaeology
5 favorite things in no order.
1. travelling
2. sex
3. sleep
4. being an archaeology nerd
5. movies/reading
4 people you can tell [almost] anything to.
1. joe.....??
2. Denise
3. Crystal
4. Rachel
3 wishes.
1. I wish I could turn back the clock to, let's say, Wednesday
2. I wish I could pay someone to write my foundations paper
3. I wish I could have a spotless mind
2 things you want to do before you die.
1. visit as many countries as possible and really experience the cultures
2. love and be loved unconditionally
1 thing you regret.
1. forget regret or life is yours to miss
I've been really sad lately. There really is no better word to use; nothing more descript or specific is needed. Three simple letters...s-a-d. I think Why am I sad you ask? Basically I have lost my best friend. I haven't needed to charge my phone in three days...that's how bad it is. I try to be optimistic, but that really has never gotten me anywhere in the past.
On top of that I have so much work to do. 2 papers due by the end of this week. So I should be doing that. Having work has helped me a little bit. I can focus and forget things for about an hour, write a page or 2, then I'm back inside my own head again.
I'll be heading to starbucks in a few to work on an outline. In a way these survey things are a compulsion...or a distraction... Let's write about some of the mundanities of my life and I might feel better. Or maybe it's just a call for attention...these things usually are. We're all exhibitionists in our own right.
9 lasts
last time you had sex:-------last night
last beverage:--------------diet coke
last kiss:---------------------this morning
last movie seen:------------parts of the negotiator
last phone call:-------------casey
last cd played:-------------BNL Maroon
last bubble bath:-----------no idea
last time you cried:---------in the car on my way home from campus
8 have you evers.
have you ever dated one of your best friends: not really
have you ever skinny dipped: yeah
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: nah...kisses aren't really regrettable
have you ever fallen in love: yep
have you ever lost someone you loved: yep
been in love with someone that LIED to u and denied it!: not to my knowledge
have you ever been depressed: professional help is forthcoming
have you ever been drunk and threw up: yeah, chardonnay is physically painful the second time around
7 states you've been to.
PA, NY, NJ, MD, DE, VA, WVA, IL, IN, OH, GA, FL, SC, NC, NV, MA, AZ
6 things you've done today.
1. listened to NPR
2. worked on a powerpoint
3. checked e-mail a couple hundred times
4. cried
5. ate a really good turkey burger (my first meal in a while)
6. thought about materialistic paradigms in archaeology
5 favorite things in no order.
1. travelling
2. sex
3. sleep
4. being an archaeology nerd
5. movies/reading
4 people you can tell [almost] anything to.
1. joe.....??
2. Denise
3. Crystal
4. Rachel
3 wishes.
1. I wish I could turn back the clock to, let's say, Wednesday
2. I wish I could pay someone to write my foundations paper
3. I wish I could have a spotless mind
2 things you want to do before you die.
1. visit as many countries as possible and really experience the cultures
2. love and be loved unconditionally
1 thing you regret.
1. forget regret or life is yours to miss