not a fan of feeling this crappy
I apologize ahead of time for the pity party.
I know I don't update often, and I don't have much to say now, I've just been in a bit of a slump lately.
So it's been about a month since Uri and I broke up. The first week or so was pretty rough, but then we were still talking and being friends so it wasn't so bad. Actually I don't even know what has changed because we're still talking and being friends, only my mood has changed. I guess for a while I was thinking we'd make up like we did so many times before. Now I'm starting to realize that it really is over. We will never have what we once had and we're both moving on with our lives. We no longer call each other over every single thing. It's weird going from knowing every aspect of someone's life, knowing where he is every minute of the day, to sometimes going whole days without even knowing what they did that day.
On a semi-related note, tonight I talked with someone I used to date back in my freshman year. We were never serious or exclusive and knew that we never would be, but we remained friends. He started dating someone around the same time I started dating Uri. He told me that he finally bought "the ring" over the weekend. Of course I'm very happy for him and wish him the best, but it didn't improve my mood at all, knowing that we both began serious relationships within a month of each other and he's getting engaged while I'm single again.
To further boost my self-esteem, someone who I would love to be spending more time with right now apparently doesn't want to have anything to do with me at the moment.
I know I don't update often, and I don't have much to say now, I've just been in a bit of a slump lately.
So it's been about a month since Uri and I broke up. The first week or so was pretty rough, but then we were still talking and being friends so it wasn't so bad. Actually I don't even know what has changed because we're still talking and being friends, only my mood has changed. I guess for a while I was thinking we'd make up like we did so many times before. Now I'm starting to realize that it really is over. We will never have what we once had and we're both moving on with our lives. We no longer call each other over every single thing. It's weird going from knowing every aspect of someone's life, knowing where he is every minute of the day, to sometimes going whole days without even knowing what they did that day.
On a semi-related note, tonight I talked with someone I used to date back in my freshman year. We were never serious or exclusive and knew that we never would be, but we remained friends. He started dating someone around the same time I started dating Uri. He told me that he finally bought "the ring" over the weekend. Of course I'm very happy for him and wish him the best, but it didn't improve my mood at all, knowing that we both began serious relationships within a month of each other and he's getting engaged while I'm single again.
To further boost my self-esteem, someone who I would love to be spending more time with right now apparently doesn't want to have anything to do with me at the moment.