ugh depression. relationships suck!
ugh well im really depressed. i can't sleep. can't eat. i wake up every morning feeling dead. i dont even know whats keeping me going. my heart doesnt exist anymore. its completely shattered. i hate relationships. i hate guys. becuase all of them no matter what they say are complete assholes. i wish i was the biggest bitch on this earth. that just didnt give a fuck about anyone but my self. but its not in me to be like that. i just want the pain im feeling to go away. i want to cry so much that i just dont have anymore tears to cry.
i can't believe he did this to me. i cant believe he has the heart to just throw me away. for what?????? for telling him that i was with my friends when i could've lied and just said i was leaving work. he would've never found out. but me being the good girlfriend that i was i dont lie..
so whatever i'm trying to make the best of this. everything happens for a reason and eventually i will find out this reason . i just hate this pain i'm feeling. and i want it to go away.
life is so complicated.