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Just before I was about to make this post, LJ asked if I wanted to restore my previous post. This is what came up
I woke up January 16th [2006] in Halifax NS and just cried. I cried for hours. I felt bad. I wasn't scared...
This obviously from the day before I left nova scotia to come back to BC. God, if only I knew the shit that was waiting for me. I've thought a lot about the shit that's went down since I came back. I made up with an old friend and lost him again. I was homeless. I almost had a kid. Twice. My mom attempted suicide. My little brother had a kid that he still hasn't seen. So much shit. It's almost hard to keep happy. It's hard to keep floating on through life. But then I think about all the good times I had. I made lots of good friends that have kept me from drowning. Friends that were, and still are, better friends then I am. Really, the shit vastly outweighs the good times, but I've been doing better then most would have.
This bring me to the question "After all that shit, what did you learn?"
- Use a condom.
- I've become the sort of person I hate.
- Life is short. Keep your wits about you or you're gonna get fucked.
- My family is a lot more fucked up than I thought.
- Most people are the worthless. Hold on to ones that aren't.
- Only help those who want it.
- Independence is the most glorious feeling in the world... so I hear.
- and finally, go after your dreams. Even if it's going to royally fuck you in the end.
P.S.: I think I'm going to regret posting this. I don't know why.
I woke up January 16th [2006] in Halifax NS and just cried. I cried for hours. I felt bad. I wasn't scared...
This obviously from the day before I left nova scotia to come back to BC. God, if only I knew the shit that was waiting for me. I've thought a lot about the shit that's went down since I came back. I made up with an old friend and lost him again. I was homeless. I almost had a kid. Twice. My mom attempted suicide. My little brother had a kid that he still hasn't seen. So much shit. It's almost hard to keep happy. It's hard to keep floating on through life. But then I think about all the good times I had. I made lots of good friends that have kept me from drowning. Friends that were, and still are, better friends then I am. Really, the shit vastly outweighs the good times, but I've been doing better then most would have.
This bring me to the question "After all that shit, what did you learn?"
- Use a condom.
- I've become the sort of person I hate.
- Life is short. Keep your wits about you or you're gonna get fucked.
- My family is a lot more fucked up than I thought.
- Most people are the worthless. Hold on to ones that aren't.
- Only help those who want it.
- Independence is the most glorious feeling in the world... so I hear.
- and finally, go after your dreams. Even if it's going to royally fuck you in the end.
P.S.: I think I'm going to regret posting this. I don't know why.