i think i'm close to an end here.
yes i am drawing ever closer to being finished here in ky. i'll give it a couple more years, for which to get my car paid off, get some certifications, and then i think i am gonna start over, run away, do things i actually want to do. be creative, inventive, outgoing, and have something to be proud of. even if i stay close by, if i can get a job making more and working less. that is what i want. to have time to invent on the side, to create and change the way our world works one step at a time. to see all my ideas come together in an actual form something i can touch and say i like or don't like this, lets change that and try this. something to keep me busy other than the constant work and sleep i do everyday. i took a new start on april 17th 2007. i dont regret it at all but i anxiously await the end, for in that end something great will begin.
as for why i am typing at 1am on a tuesday morning, i was sick today, i slept all day and am waiting to go to work, i will be leaving here in about 4 hours so, not quite enough time to do much else. work, sleep, work, sleep, when ever there is time for fun and i take advantage of it, i almost always regret it. i think the next day at work, man i should have slept, instead of going to karaoke, or having people over for drinks, or playing wow, the next morning i wake up, most likely late and sleep deprived, thinking "man i shouldn't have done that" but then what am i supposed to do? i guess this is why grownups are so boring, they do nothing but sleep and work for years at a time. since that's the only way i can seem to get my butt into work on time i guess that's what i will have to do as well. tho i am not admitting defeat, i am going to work hard so i can get things straitened out in the next year or so so i can do what i want.
as for why i am typing at 1am on a tuesday morning, i was sick today, i slept all day and am waiting to go to work, i will be leaving here in about 4 hours so, not quite enough time to do much else. work, sleep, work, sleep, when ever there is time for fun and i take advantage of it, i almost always regret it. i think the next day at work, man i should have slept, instead of going to karaoke, or having people over for drinks, or playing wow, the next morning i wake up, most likely late and sleep deprived, thinking "man i shouldn't have done that" but then what am i supposed to do? i guess this is why grownups are so boring, they do nothing but sleep and work for years at a time. since that's the only way i can seem to get my butt into work on time i guess that's what i will have to do as well. tho i am not admitting defeat, i am going to work hard so i can get things straitened out in the next year or so so i can do what i want.