---used to hate kristan club--lol
well it seems as though im trying to make ammends with ppl...but its kinda hard when im getting blamed for things that are said in other ppls journals when im most defintly not the one saying them....well jonathan is a great guy...he is really cool...uhh this weekend is just going to be BLA....there is nothing to do..tomarrow i may be going to ginnys...hopefully..so i dont have to sit in this house much longer...iono im kinda upset about something but im not to sure about what though...theres alot of things bothering me lately...shane is particular...but owellz what can you do...im thinkin that im over him....maybe....its soo boring...its the same ole bullshit everyday...and there are a few ppl who ive been kinda thinking about lately....well actually thinking about them alot! its driving me insane...i think about them so much i dont have time to worry about shane and what he is doing...and i kinda like that feeling in etleast 20 million different ways! but then again i know i could never break up with him just because i dont have that kinda of will power just yet...its hard for me to hurt ppl believe it or not...im not such a terrible person after all (the world gasps) whoa buddy kristan may actually be human and have feelings after all! imagine that...ergzz im tired all i want to do is go to sleep...but the other half is wanting me to go out and have fun...just like shane is prolly doing right now...w/o me! when i think about it that way, i almost incourage myself to dump his sry ass! yes kristan i think you can do it...maybe so..who knows...well i dont think i should be talking about this on here....well i guess im going to go and call ginny and talk to her about this! iight well later yall...