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Feb 25, 2009 20:45

People keep asking how school is going.

I tell them it's not.

They ask what happened. They look disappointed.

I say Life happened.

erik leaving this world, cold weather, stressful job, not knowing who I'm working for a month from now, third of the staff up and quitting, cameron, house i can't keep organized, meetings every night of the week, friends needing a lot from me, a mother always needing help of some kind, a grandmother in a nursing home who needs visited, grief counseling beating me up, car accident, bills i wasn't expecting, signing up for even more things to keep up with, homework I couldn't understand, teaching assistants that can't speak english.

That's what happened.

They don't get it. I couldn't do it. I don't know whether I'll ever be able to balance it all.

Cameron will graduate college before I will. And by then, it really won't matter. He'll grow up with a mom who can't get it done. She didn't finish. She thinks it's too hard. She gave up.
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