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I havent felt so alone and sad in a long long time and i dont think ever to this extent. I hate feeling this way and dont really know what to do, for the last couple of days Ive been feeling on the brink of tears, and I cant really think of a reason why, I really dont think its because im away for chritmas I can handle that. I kinda think its becuse I kinda feel like I have no emotional support here and it kinda just hit me really really fast and hard. I keep getting the feeling that Im losing my place in the group and becoming an outcast I dont really know how to handle it. people are starting to annoy me and Im getting the feeling that people are getting annnoyed with me and arent telling me. just writing this makes me want to cry but i thought putting my thoughts into word would help. i dunno well see.