whats been going on lately...
first off to let everyone know... i did not read any of the things that had been posted since i found out that everyone was fighting. im assuming points were made on both sides, i just didnt wanna read it bc i dont know if any of the things said on there were going to upset me. when i saw how there were so many comments i decided i wouldnt read it. im not mad at anyone.. everyone said they arent mad at me so im hoping thats still true. but i just needed me and chad time so that i could figure out what I wanted to do. i know i ignored everyone but i dont know what else to say besides sorry. ive never dealt with anything like that before and i guess this is how i deal with things... i know that no one wants to hear anything about chad so i havent said anything to anyone and i wont bc i know how ppl feel about him. im not going to ask any of you to be his friend bc i know everyone's feelings toward him. he and i both know how he fucked up and thats just something i have to deal with. i did give him another chance and as of right now im really happy with him. not everyone messes up the way he did, not everyone gets second chances... it was my choice to take him back and im glad i did. he means a lot to me. i just want ppl to know that he makes me happy and im just wanting everyone to respect that... no one has accept it bc i know ppl have their own opinions of things and everyone felt the way they did bc they care about me... and i am glad that i have friends who care. i havent been doing much of anything lately bc ive been broke with my bills, going to the doc so much in the past 2 months, and now having to get my car fixed this week. i think im finally going to get better now... im just tired of being sick and going to the doc so much... im not used to having so many health problems in my life. ok well imma go now.