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[kristine283]

yeah so all my friends are mad at me right now... well all i can say is sorry. everyone is just talking behind my back not to me at all. everyone went out for kristys bday.. yeah i was invited.... i forgot it was her bday so i didnt go... and what 'pisses me off is that i spoke to someone a few times before i got off work and they didnt mention it

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[anonymous]

I think people do deserve another chance sometimes, not that i am saying that he does. I had problems with mike too just last week, but i have never ditched my friends for anyone and definitly not anyone who was gonna do something like that to me. i mean who was there for you when things went bad?? you gotta remember that. dont give up on the people that are there for you and it sounds like that is what you have done.. you can have friends and be with someone at the same time

[kristine283]

i know you have have problems with mike too. ive had a lot of problems the last month... how would you feel if you thought you had herpes for a almost a month... i didnt talk to anyone.... the only person who know for a whil was trisha then eventually i told theresa.. i didnt do anythihng... not just with you guys... ppl at work noticed, my mom, aunt kathy, even as sad as it sounds customers that know me could tell something was wrong.. yeah you are right for a WHOLE month i have been MIA... especially with what happened to me... like i said i forgot it was your bday and i cant do anything bc i missed it but apologize. i have pushed everyone away.. especially my mom. and honestley right now thats the main relationship i care about fixing the most.. ive been letting her down a lot lately and now i have to deal with everyone else.. yes i shut everyone out.. not bc i have a bf but bc i have been dealing with a lot of problems that i dont talk about... there are a lot of things going on that ppl dont know but they are only judging me on

[anonymous]

you cant use that disease excuse for everything and you have been trying to. im sorry you had all that to go through, i do hear your apology. but you keep trying to make excuses for not being there, and they arent working. i dont really feel like fighting about it. i am just tellin you i am upset with you,... and you were wrong, and there is No excuse. none at all.

[kristine283]

you know wHAT IM sick of everyone right now and if you dont want to accept my apology well what can i do.. you have no idea in the world what it felt for me to have this and deal with whats going on. whatever im just tired of everyone judging me. i need time with chad to deal with my problems. yeah i forgot it was your bday what else can i say... be mad at me forever if you want to. and im not using that as an excuse... i was depressed... i cried for days... i couldnt even stay the whole night at work. im just tired of everything. well i gotta go.. its just hurting me bc i know ppl have done worse to others and yeah this has been my fuck up of all the friendships ive had but ppl have done worse things and i cant take all these ppl criticising me for what i wanna do or what i have done and what makes me happy.

[spideytk]

No body is mad at you.. everybody is just upset about everything.. we dont talk to you about it because you started brushing us off.. Why talk when you cant be heard!!!! Do what you want to.. everything is your choice.. as in friendships, boyfriends, etc... Make your own desicions, choices and mistakes, do what you want.. But i have to tell you if something happens to you and him agian I am not going to be there to concile and comfort you...... and honestly, I dont want to hear about him...

[kristine283]

i havent said anything about him to any of you bc i know that everytime you guys even look at me all anyone does is judge me and no one can say that stuff isnt true... especially when ppl think i walk outta a room and i dont then i immediately hear things being said about me... why do i want to talk to ppl who dont want to listen and i hear talk behind my back... i donteven know who is everybody bc i feel like its no ones business thats why i barely spoke to anyone at work. it pisses me off that when i got to work ppl are in my business and these were ppl who i hadnt spoken to in days.. so why would i wanna talk to anyone who cant even come up to me, but start talking to everyone... examples... jen and paula.. they have both said things to me that everyone else has said and only one person has tried to say something buti blew them off. no one else has tried to say anything...

[anonymous]

I dont care about the chad thing. I mean you have already gone back to him. i thing your silly for it but hey..... thats not what i am even talkin about. thats not my issue with you. mine is that you think its more important to deal with him, than anyone/ anything else. You said you need time with him to deal with things.... are you gonna deal with anything else? i have been askin for a little of your time, for a long time..... are you saying you dont want to deal with issues that are now between you and me? All i want is not to be blown off by you, and for you to at least talk to me. i am upset with you..not mad and hating you. not at all. i accept your decision to be with him, do what you want. i know i have more to say but this can go on forever.