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so i dont really know what to say. i know its not my fault but there is always the "what if"... what if i woulda asked him to pull over right away when he told me how drunk he is and i picked him up... what if i just woulda went to his house and hung out with like he asked... i feel selfish... i said its too late and we will hang out tomorrow he said ok but he was still on his way there... how could i not even thing something happened... i remember sitting at the bay afterhours assuming he went home but he didnt... what if i woulda stayed on the phone with him...maybe he would have concentrated more on the road while on the phone.. or maybe god didnt want me on the phone with him while it happened... it's so hard trying to get in contact with people i virtually never talk to anymore... im trying my best to get old friends to be there.. i just hope your family isnt dissappointed if your friends dont turn out like everyone has hoped. im trying i promise... im so sorry craig