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so yea...self-evaluation
back to one of those crazy parts of your life where you rethink everything that youve been doing for the past year....makes me feel like shit. but whats worse is when people think that bitching at you is gonna make you change. reality check: it doesnt work.
im losing my edge. mom even said so. corey told me that he can tell that im fucking myself over...
its so sad when everyone else knows that what your doing is bad and your agreeing with them but you just cant stop because...because. theres no reason.
what am i looking for?
to get high? i used to be able to walk into a party totally sober and people would ask me if i was high because i would be having so much fun. amy, you know what i mean, we were high on life. hope not dope. what the fuck happened. anytime that were not high, were so down its not even funny. i havent had a good sober day in like 3 months.
do i wanna keep doing this?
im getting depressed. ive never been depressed before. not like this. sure ive had my bad days, or bad weeks...but never bad months, bad years. corey said that i look like someone took the happy out of me. he can tell when i was high the night before because i wont look at him. he almost made me cry. but now, it seems like everything almost makes me cry.
i gotta bad feeling about this
K
back to one of those crazy parts of your life where you rethink everything that youve been doing for the past year....makes me feel like shit. but whats worse is when people think that bitching at you is gonna make you change. reality check: it doesnt work.
im losing my edge. mom even said so. corey told me that he can tell that im fucking myself over...
its so sad when everyone else knows that what your doing is bad and your agreeing with them but you just cant stop because...because. theres no reason.
what am i looking for?
to get high? i used to be able to walk into a party totally sober and people would ask me if i was high because i would be having so much fun. amy, you know what i mean, we were high on life. hope not dope. what the fuck happened. anytime that were not high, were so down its not even funny. i havent had a good sober day in like 3 months.
do i wanna keep doing this?
im getting depressed. ive never been depressed before. not like this. sure ive had my bad days, or bad weeks...but never bad months, bad years. corey said that i look like someone took the happy out of me. he can tell when i was high the night before because i wont look at him. he almost made me cry. but now, it seems like everything almost makes me cry.
i gotta bad feeling about this
K