I need an update
So I've moved back to school. I missed it so much. Its so nice to see everyone again. I also have met some really nice people and I absolutely adore the girls on my floor which is always fun. Last year I didn't make any friends of my own and its finally nice that I am being more outgoing and making friends as well as keeping with the old ones. I really needed that..
So since I moved in early theres just been lots of partying going on. Some things I've done this past week I'm not so proud of. All I know is that things are going to change for me. I really know exactly what I want and its becoming really clear to me recently that I know how I need to get to that point. This past week made me realize that I do not enjoy just meeting random guys at some huge party. That just isn't my scene. I've also realized that I'm beginning to really really feel the single life. Things back at home were just weird. but now I've had a tough and hard realization as to everything that is going to be going on this next year. I was being really emotional and having a tough time with the situations but I really am learning to deal with it. I promised myself I gotta stay strong, keep my mouth shut because most of the time I go to bed and the next day I just feel better about the situation. sometimes I just gotta let things sink in. I really want to try to change and not be so moody and angry at people for things. I want to be nice, respectful and just have fun with my friends. I don't want my friends talking about me behind my back. I want my friends to like me and to enjoy me.
I just need to be patient and I need everyone to be patient with me. I know I can do this I just need to stay strong with everything that will happen so that it doesnt hurt me at all. I'm tired of hurting because its no ones fault but myself. I need to stop taking it out on people cuz its not nice and its not fun for others to have to deal with it. Sorry for those I've troubled. I won't hurt anymore and I just need to deal with things differently because the way I am right now just isn't working out.... I'm going to lose my best friend if I don't stop.
Tomarrow is a brand new start to a new year. Things are going to be different. Here is to changing for the better!