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Where to start..
Friday Chase came into town..I tried to hang out with him as much as I could. I worked some.
sigh, It's kind of hard to ignore and sort of makes me feel a little bad about it. Because Chase and Gina are both my friends. I knew Chase before she did but I've known Gina longer than anybody else. Soooo they got together through me. Chase was always thankful to me for that. But since they have broken up and (I know he says he's over it but he's clearly not)he's not over the situation it's weird. He's asked me what I thought about it all, was Gina right, why couldn't she have cared for him or thought about him like she's doing with this other guy when Chase lived right here with her. And I have told him before I didn't want to get into the middle of it, but seeing a friend of yours hurting isn't so cool. And I did think Gina was wrong. Chase seemed good for her. But I was telling him Saturday..I've never seen Gina this happy over a guy, this content, happy and content enough to drop all the other guys in her life. It's a first. Most of the crap Gina says or does not I or anybody else knows what she is talking about, what made her think that, where it came from. She doesn't even know sometimes. But she's the type of person that will only do or say things if it feels right, if it's appropriate. That's what makes her happy. Her leaving chase as sexy as he is and as cool as she thought he was...was appropriate for her. Her falling for this guy and moving is something that apparently feels right and appropriate for her. So, if she is happy and feeling good..I can't blame her. I can't take Chase's side. I can't doubt her. She knows what she's doing. And that's one thing she told us way back earlier this year when she was living with us and we were questioning her on her motives. She knows what she's doing. I guess Chase needs to move on. And I wish he would quit bringing me into it.
Okay enough of that.
Now...Chris told me he thinks he's supposed to go to court today and he would be seeing this baby that is supposedly his. He asked me if I wanted to go. I wanted to..to hear the results, see the baby, find out for myself. But I didn't want to go alone. Since this whole thing started with him and I and the finding outs of this..I've felt alone. I don't trust him like I used to. I feel like I can't rely on him. Everything Gina was telling me is starting to come true. Not because I'm letting that influence me, but she was right.
Annnnd, I spoke with John the other day. He really is so sweet. We talked about things, one being the Chris and I situation. He told me the usual "He's no good for you, find somebody better, he doesn't love you, etc."
John will be in town this coming weekend...I'm going to see him.
Friday Chase came into town..I tried to hang out with him as much as I could. I worked some.
sigh, It's kind of hard to ignore and sort of makes me feel a little bad about it. Because Chase and Gina are both my friends. I knew Chase before she did but I've known Gina longer than anybody else. Soooo they got together through me. Chase was always thankful to me for that. But since they have broken up and (I know he says he's over it but he's clearly not)he's not over the situation it's weird. He's asked me what I thought about it all, was Gina right, why couldn't she have cared for him or thought about him like she's doing with this other guy when Chase lived right here with her. And I have told him before I didn't want to get into the middle of it, but seeing a friend of yours hurting isn't so cool. And I did think Gina was wrong. Chase seemed good for her. But I was telling him Saturday..I've never seen Gina this happy over a guy, this content, happy and content enough to drop all the other guys in her life. It's a first. Most of the crap Gina says or does not I or anybody else knows what she is talking about, what made her think that, where it came from. She doesn't even know sometimes. But she's the type of person that will only do or say things if it feels right, if it's appropriate. That's what makes her happy. Her leaving chase as sexy as he is and as cool as she thought he was...was appropriate for her. Her falling for this guy and moving is something that apparently feels right and appropriate for her. So, if she is happy and feeling good..I can't blame her. I can't take Chase's side. I can't doubt her. She knows what she's doing. And that's one thing she told us way back earlier this year when she was living with us and we were questioning her on her motives. She knows what she's doing. I guess Chase needs to move on. And I wish he would quit bringing me into it.
Okay enough of that.
Now...Chris told me he thinks he's supposed to go to court today and he would be seeing this baby that is supposedly his. He asked me if I wanted to go. I wanted to..to hear the results, see the baby, find out for myself. But I didn't want to go alone. Since this whole thing started with him and I and the finding outs of this..I've felt alone. I don't trust him like I used to. I feel like I can't rely on him. Everything Gina was telling me is starting to come true. Not because I'm letting that influence me, but she was right.
Annnnd, I spoke with John the other day. He really is so sweet. We talked about things, one being the Chris and I situation. He told me the usual "He's no good for you, find somebody better, he doesn't love you, etc."
John will be in town this coming weekend...I'm going to see him.