May 20, 2006 09:05
I have been looking forward to today for the last four months. My mom was supposed to be here in 5 hours. She was going to spend the next 9-10 days with me. It's her birthday and I was going to take her out and partttttttttttty.
Change of plans.
Nanny was diagnosed with PANCREATIC cancer. =O She must have surgery ASAP. Mom needs to stay home and take care of her.
Trip canceled.
I can't explain all the emotions running through my mind right now. Losing my Pappy was the HARDEST Thing I have ever experienced in my life. It hit me so hard and affected my daily life so much that I ended up on anti-depressents.
I can't lose her, I just cannot.
I am going to buy a plane ticket ASAP and I am going home. I have to see her and spend time with her, because we never know how long our loved ones will actually be around.
I can't stop crying.