She cries herself to sleep at night
well i havent posted in over a year... myspace just sorta became my life there for awhile no im a little over it anyways i have no idea who still uses lj but anyways
Okay Mt Isa update... I have been here now for 6 maybe 7 months... and im liking it okay .... been feeling really emo the last few weeks but... i have started making some really good friends... friends that i can see myself being friends with for the rest of my life...maybe??
but i miss my old friends you know when you hear a song or look at photos and old memories flood back and you wish you could go back to that time but you know things will never ever be the same again ....
i want to go back to so many different ocasions and re live some of the fun times that me and my friends had back then....
although im starting to make new memories with my friends here and iam having some awesome times .... i feel like something is missing and i can't quiet think of what it is ...
I just quit my job and i have started getting in the routine of sleeping till 5pm staying awake till 6am just cause i hate facing each day .... i dont know why
but for the first time in my life... well for as long as i can remember I LOVE MY MUM ... and i havent said that in years .... she is always trying to do the right thing by me and i always manage to throw back in her face .... for some reason i cant show her how i feel becasue i have always shown so much hatered towards her....
i dont want to live here forever but i prolly will.... iam too scared to move back to the coast.... and as much as i miss so many ppl down there... if i move im going to miss ppl here too .... so now im really confused...
i can count my closest friends on one hand or make that a finger ....i think she knows who she is....
but feeling like you have no close friends to turn to in a time of crisis is the most upsetting thing to me... friends have always been my life cause i had no family near me on the gc... and no i have both but something still is making me unhappy... i guess i will find happiness one day.....
so to all my friends back home... thank you too the ones who have kept in touch with me this means so much
and to all my new friends thank you for giving me so many new memories and making it so much bearable for me to live here
love you all so much
Okay Mt Isa update... I have been here now for 6 maybe 7 months... and im liking it okay .... been feeling really emo the last few weeks but... i have started making some really good friends... friends that i can see myself being friends with for the rest of my life...maybe??
but i miss my old friends you know when you hear a song or look at photos and old memories flood back and you wish you could go back to that time but you know things will never ever be the same again ....
i want to go back to so many different ocasions and re live some of the fun times that me and my friends had back then....
although im starting to make new memories with my friends here and iam having some awesome times .... i feel like something is missing and i can't quiet think of what it is ...
I just quit my job and i have started getting in the routine of sleeping till 5pm staying awake till 6am just cause i hate facing each day .... i dont know why
but for the first time in my life... well for as long as i can remember I LOVE MY MUM ... and i havent said that in years .... she is always trying to do the right thing by me and i always manage to throw back in her face .... for some reason i cant show her how i feel becasue i have always shown so much hatered towards her....
i dont want to live here forever but i prolly will.... iam too scared to move back to the coast.... and as much as i miss so many ppl down there... if i move im going to miss ppl here too .... so now im really confused...
i can count my closest friends on one hand or make that a finger ....i think she knows who she is....
but feeling like you have no close friends to turn to in a time of crisis is the most upsetting thing to me... friends have always been my life cause i had no family near me on the gc... and no i have both but something still is making me unhappy... i guess i will find happiness one day.....
so to all my friends back home... thank you too the ones who have kept in touch with me this means so much
and to all my new friends thank you for giving me so many new memories and making it so much bearable for me to live here
love you all so much