Sep 18, 2006 10:23
Well I haven't updated for a while. Nothing of any consequence has really happened with Devin. I was doing so well though. I didn't work with him for like almost a week, and I guess out of sight out of mind...I mean I thought about him, but not to the point of insanity. Now I just worked with him the last 2 days, so I am back to the insanity again. Saturday when we worked together we were sitting in the puppy love room on break and he brought up last weekend...I dunno how we got on the topic, but he said how I talk a lot when I am drunk, then mimicked me telling him he had nice eyes with a big smile on his face. I was going to tell him I meant it, but someone else walked into the room. So that kinda nixed that opportunity. And all night he like wanted me to do things with him...like when I got him to feed and water the dogs he wanted me to come with him. And of course I did, even though I was supposed to be out on the floor. And it sounds silly and maybe I am imagining it because I want to, but it seems like he gets close to me and then gauges my reaction. Like I was putting water in one of the dishes, and he came over and got it from me and stopped like 2 inches away from me. Like he was so close I could feel him breathing on my face. And we looked at each other for a couple seconds before he took the dish from me and put it in the kennel. And in those couple seconds we were definitely looking in each other's eyes, uber-cheesy as that sounds. I don't know which one of us looked away first, but it was probably me. That whole intimidated thing. Which he brought up yesterday. We were both up at cash and he said something about me being scared of him, and I corrected him and said I was intimidated by him, not scared. I didn't deny it though, so maybe he got it. And we pick on each other and it's like we find excuses to touch each other. Like I marked on him with a pen and then he got me with a sharpie so I hauled out my sharpie and he took it from me and like laced his fingers through mine. It was more like he was holding my hand than holding me back. I dunno, like I said, maybe I am imagining it because that's what I want. Now I don't work with him till Saturday again, but he is coming back to work full time :)
Friday Amy and I went to Sweetwaters, and it was a good drunken time. I got kissed by a random guy on my way to the bar to get a drink, whom by the way was really hot. Didn't say anything, just kissed me. And I danced with some guy who was like 26 and said he was a tattoo artist but he had no tattoos or piercings...sketchy. Every time he tried to kiss me I just turned my head lol. And Amy had, well, a good time to say the least. We were both pretty trashed. Anyway I should go shower and get ready for work...
~*~I'd give up forever to touch you / cause I know that you feel me somehow / You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I don't wanna go home right now. And all I can taste is this moment / And all I can breathe is your life / Cause sooner or later it's over / I just don't wanna miss you tonight / And I don't want the world to see me / Cause I don't think that they'd undersstand / When everything's made to be broken / I just want you to know who I am / And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming / Or the moment of truth in your lies / When everything feels like the movies / And you bleed just to know you're alive / And I don't want the world to see me / Cause I don't think that they'd undersstand / When everything's made to be broken / I just want you to know who I am...~*~