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Well, time to update everyone on what's been going on in my life. Funny how so much can change in so little time.
First off, Ryan and I are not together any more. We sat and talked and cried for a long time, but decided in the end that it was the best thing for both of us. Neither of us has been happy for a while now, and I think we were just going through the motions. So in the end I think we will be better off. We are going to stay friends; it was very civil. On the plus side, I don't have to feel guilty about liking Devin now. I am staying in the apartment with him until I find another place, and then I am moving out. And believe me, I need out soon. It's kind of awkward being here. Even with him sleeping on the couch it's strange. I need to find a place with a room mate though, I don't think I can afford to live alone. Plus part of the reason I am not going to school is because I want to work and save some money. And I can't very well do that if I can barely afford to live. I HAD an apartment all lined up, until the girl I was supposed to move in with decided to get someone else to move in with her. So I got jewed out of that one. It was a nice place too. But oh well, hopefully I will be able to find another one. I called about one today but it was already taken.
Anyway....since I am not going to school this year, Roy made me supervisor at work. Which means a substantial pay raise, and some authority. That was kinda nice. I get my keys and stuff when he comes back from his vacation at the end of this week. So that should prove interesting.
Let's see....Steph is coming to visit me this weekend :D I am super excited!! I think I might have a small social gathering on Saturday night. There will be drinking, reminiscing and who knows what else. And Amy is back now too! That makes me happy. Too bad she is in res, or I could live with her.
Oh, and everyone at work knows I like Devin now. He told Christin, and she told everyone. Not sure what to make of that.
Friday night was Scott's (Christin's boyfriend) going away party. He's going away for 3 months to train for the military. So Devin and I went to that. Devin, Scott and Christin were the only people I knew. We went there at like 6 and barbequed(?) a bunch of stuff and started drinking. I only had like 1 drink at first. Then the guys decided they were going to do a "century club" (a shot a minute for 100 minutes; with beer, because if you did it with hard liquor you would probably die lol). So I decided I was going to do it too. Then I convinced Christin to do it. So I went and got some Corona. I don't normally drink beer, I don't like it too much. So we started the century. I got through about 3 beer (about 7-8 shots per beer) and then decided to switch to coolers because the taste of the beer was making me queasy. Coolers=more alcohol than beer, so I was already getting drunker quicker. I went through about 6 coolers, then I had to pee super bad (in which case you are out). So I went to pee and then I went outside with Christin for a cigar (good when you are drinking). That was when she told me she knew I liked Devin. She was pretty plastered at this point, as was I. We talked for a really long time about it, but don't ask me what was said, I don't really remember. Then Devin came out and we went back inside and I started drinking Fireball. Not a good idea. I sent Devin to the store to get me some gum (wtf) and he came back and gave it to me, and I lost it after chewing only 1 piece. Then I decided to sit at the table with the guys, wearing my sunglasses, drinking more fireball while they were doing the century. Also not a good idea. The guy next to me was getting sick off of the smell of the fireball lol. And then it happened. All of a sudden I felt the urge to go outside and puke in the bushes. Then after I puked there were 2 guys out there who had watched me puke and then I started talking to them. There was also this epileptic guy there who was hitting on me all night...that was kinda weird. He was a little gross too. But anyway...I was so trashed that at about 11:30 or even a little before I went up to Devin and told him that he needed to take me home because I was having trouble walking and even seeing (you know, the motor skills thing). So we went out and got in his car. Then I started harassing him to tell me what Melinda said again. He wouldn't. So I made him promise to tell me when I was sober, and he promised. More than once actually. Then we finally got to my place. He got out to get my liquor out of the trunk and I decided it would be a good idea to give him a big hug. I don't think I said anything, just threw my arms around him. Then I asked him to help me up the stairs because I was pretty sure I would NOT have made it on my own. So then at the top of the stairs I asked him to give me another hug (which I got :)) and made him promise me again that he was going to talk to me when I was sober. I also told him at one point that he had to stop playing with my feelings. He said he wasn't, and I assured him that he was. So I haven't really had a chance to be alone with him much since Friday. We have been working opposite shifts so we haven't had breaks together, and his grandparents were visiting so he hasn't really hung out after work. I thought maybe he thought I forgot about his promise because I was drunk, so I told him on Sunday that I didn't forget. I think the next time we work the same shift is Saturday so we will be on break together. And I am going to invite him over Saturday I think. So that might be promising. Anyway, I think that's it, and I soon have to go to bed because I work in the morning. I'll post more when there is more to post.
First off, Ryan and I are not together any more. We sat and talked and cried for a long time, but decided in the end that it was the best thing for both of us. Neither of us has been happy for a while now, and I think we were just going through the motions. So in the end I think we will be better off. We are going to stay friends; it was very civil. On the plus side, I don't have to feel guilty about liking Devin now. I am staying in the apartment with him until I find another place, and then I am moving out. And believe me, I need out soon. It's kind of awkward being here. Even with him sleeping on the couch it's strange. I need to find a place with a room mate though, I don't think I can afford to live alone. Plus part of the reason I am not going to school is because I want to work and save some money. And I can't very well do that if I can barely afford to live. I HAD an apartment all lined up, until the girl I was supposed to move in with decided to get someone else to move in with her. So I got jewed out of that one. It was a nice place too. But oh well, hopefully I will be able to find another one. I called about one today but it was already taken.
Anyway....since I am not going to school this year, Roy made me supervisor at work. Which means a substantial pay raise, and some authority. That was kinda nice. I get my keys and stuff when he comes back from his vacation at the end of this week. So that should prove interesting.
Let's see....Steph is coming to visit me this weekend :D I am super excited!! I think I might have a small social gathering on Saturday night. There will be drinking, reminiscing and who knows what else. And Amy is back now too! That makes me happy. Too bad she is in res, or I could live with her.
Oh, and everyone at work knows I like Devin now. He told Christin, and she told everyone. Not sure what to make of that.
Friday night was Scott's (Christin's boyfriend) going away party. He's going away for 3 months to train for the military. So Devin and I went to that. Devin, Scott and Christin were the only people I knew. We went there at like 6 and barbequed(?) a bunch of stuff and started drinking. I only had like 1 drink at first. Then the guys decided they were going to do a "century club" (a shot a minute for 100 minutes; with beer, because if you did it with hard liquor you would probably die lol). So I decided I was going to do it too. Then I convinced Christin to do it. So I went and got some Corona. I don't normally drink beer, I don't like it too much. So we started the century. I got through about 3 beer (about 7-8 shots per beer) and then decided to switch to coolers because the taste of the beer was making me queasy. Coolers=more alcohol than beer, so I was already getting drunker quicker. I went through about 6 coolers, then I had to pee super bad (in which case you are out). So I went to pee and then I went outside with Christin for a cigar (good when you are drinking). That was when she told me she knew I liked Devin. She was pretty plastered at this point, as was I. We talked for a really long time about it, but don't ask me what was said, I don't really remember. Then Devin came out and we went back inside and I started drinking Fireball. Not a good idea. I sent Devin to the store to get me some gum (wtf) and he came back and gave it to me, and I lost it after chewing only 1 piece. Then I decided to sit at the table with the guys, wearing my sunglasses, drinking more fireball while they were doing the century. Also not a good idea. The guy next to me was getting sick off of the smell of the fireball lol. And then it happened. All of a sudden I felt the urge to go outside and puke in the bushes. Then after I puked there were 2 guys out there who had watched me puke and then I started talking to them. There was also this epileptic guy there who was hitting on me all night...that was kinda weird. He was a little gross too. But anyway...I was so trashed that at about 11:30 or even a little before I went up to Devin and told him that he needed to take me home because I was having trouble walking and even seeing (you know, the motor skills thing). So we went out and got in his car. Then I started harassing him to tell me what Melinda said again. He wouldn't. So I made him promise to tell me when I was sober, and he promised. More than once actually. Then we finally got to my place. He got out to get my liquor out of the trunk and I decided it would be a good idea to give him a big hug. I don't think I said anything, just threw my arms around him. Then I asked him to help me up the stairs because I was pretty sure I would NOT have made it on my own. So then at the top of the stairs I asked him to give me another hug (which I got :)) and made him promise me again that he was going to talk to me when I was sober. I also told him at one point that he had to stop playing with my feelings. He said he wasn't, and I assured him that he was. So I haven't really had a chance to be alone with him much since Friday. We have been working opposite shifts so we haven't had breaks together, and his grandparents were visiting so he hasn't really hung out after work. I thought maybe he thought I forgot about his promise because I was drunk, so I told him on Sunday that I didn't forget. I think the next time we work the same shift is Saturday so we will be on break together. And I am going to invite him over Saturday I think. So that might be promising. Anyway, I think that's it, and I soon have to go to bed because I work in the morning. I'll post more when there is more to post.