honest.

[kristensue]

i am the scum of the earth. the worm in the dirt. dig dig dig
i am the bile in the vomit. the bits of corn left in tact in the crap.

i am the diarrhea of existence.

i am red-handed. strung. i am the naked woman caught in the act.

i deserve every stone. i deserve every stone. i deserve every stone.

i am the ugly, the dead, the lost. i am hunger, i am lust, i am disease.

i am the purulent drainage. i am the infected hangnail, folicle, pustule.

i am the acidic burning of the esophagus. the tumor of the brain.
the tumor of the brain. i am the chancre.

i am the dirty rose. the despicable. the despised. the dejected and disgusting.

me. putrid. filthy.  who can save this wretch? who could ever love the dirty rose?
i am the pits. the stink. the body odor. the hair toes. the fungus.

i am my own affliction.

The Lord your God is with you
He is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you
He will quiet you with his love
He will rejoice over you with singing.

Save me O God. Save me.