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[kristenmohawk]

Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
but the show must go on....

Have you ever known what its like to have your heart broken over and over again?

I do.

I hate the way I am lately,
I feel like I havent done anything right.

I dont like the way this feels, I want to go home and just like break down and cry.
I wish i had like a friend or someone i could turn to and just bawl on their shoulder.
I hate the way it feels to have to hide your emotion to make everyone else happy.
Ive wanted to cry about so many things and I havent. But tonite i just caved in.
Ive been in tears since eight.
I feel like im not at home, i want to be some where safe.
Im not trying to be a drama queen i just want order back in my life.
I want to feel loved and have attention and smiles all around.
I want to play fight and get mad for no reason and drink slurpies until i get brain freeze.
I want to open my myspace and have zero hate mail from people i know.
I want to be able to have a hug whenever i need it
hugs make the world go round and if its not the whole world..its deffinately my world.

I want to curl up in a ball and just cry about everything that upsets me.
I want to understand why Im not invited to my moms own wedding bc of my tattoos.

I want to know why everyone feels like its okay to yell at me and use me for rides and shit.

I just want to be happy again.

I want fucking order in my life.

Dear fucking jesus.....

someone make it better.

Eu amo voce.
My life
My love
My best friend