I have brain damage!
No, seriously. I do. Yesterday I wacked the side of my face on a 45 lb metal weight bar. I was putting up weights and knew the bar was there and misjudged where it was and WHAM! Now it is bruising and swollen. All day today I've been doing stupid things. Like, today I was on the same side of town, so I thought I would drive by ex-in-laws' house, which also was the house Jeremy grew up in. Lots and lots of memories. WTF? I guess I wanted to test myself to see how over him I am. I thought I would feel something. Some twinge of sadness, anger, whatever. But, I didn't feel anything. It wasn't numbness. That is a way the mind deals with something so painful. It was like I was driving by a stranger's house. Someone I've never met, yet someone I know so well. Trying to figure it out. Trying to figure out why I don't feel anything for someone I was with for so long. My first and only with everything. It's not even like a bad dream. It's like it never was. A good thing, I'm certain. Sorry, I'm just in a contemplative mood. On a lighter note, I am off to the Carribean tomorrow morning. Going to Key West, Grand Caymen, Cozumel, etc. Will be back in a week. Jessie and I are already trying to figure out ways to get ourselves into trouble. Lots of fun. And not only is it a ship I've never been on, but it's a brand new cruise line. Been in business less than a year. The ship's inagural cruise was last week. So that means, we will be the first passengers on it. Woohoo! Then, after the cruise, we have 7 ships to inspect. That's where agents learn the inner workings of each ship. Double woo hoo!! Yeah. Ok, gotta go. My head hurts.