happy four years + one week
July 1 marked the anniversary of my livejournal. We broke ground in the year 2004.
Looking back on the years... hah, I was pretty stupid at age 17. Starting writing right before shit hit the fan. Didn't document everything because I didn't think people could handle it. Hell, I could hardly handle it.
Alas, things today are swell. Here's a look back at the times. Senior in high school to a senior in college.
Now if only I could get a relationship to last this long...
July 1, 2004
i thought that i was strong i thought "hey i can leave, i can leave" but now i know that i was wrong, cuz i missed you
well kids, here i sit, my 10th night in lockport, new york. my time here- and its not up yet, 4 more days to go- has been everything i could have imagined. the people rock. period. ok, well there were a FEW little let-downs, but after the first 5 you learn to get over them quickly. and you know what else?.....i am REALLY going to miss Mighty Taco. and of course, i'll miss lexie, kelly, bailey, rory, andy, josh, andrew, bill, cousin ryan, mike, chris, laura, mary, kimberlee, terry, lyndsay, kim, sean, matt, dave, ryan, pumpkin....and oh yes, sterling. i won't be seein' ya'll for a while....but, for the remainder of the time i am up, it's gonna rock. this weekend is the 4th....can't wait. might get to see my FAVORITE band of all time, the OH so lovely and talented... GOO GOO DOLLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DarthasElvn: you are a senior now, what do think, hope that this year goes by fast?
SpiritStar14: yes and no
DarthasElvn: why yes and no
SpiritStar14: yes b/c i wanna be outta high school and no b/c im kinda scared about college
DarthasElvn: why are you scared?
SpiritStar14: i dont know how to do laundry :-/
what else is scaring me is the thunder outside....and i'm also contemplating HOW ON EARTH the sun is still out at 9 o'clock at night. guess its just one of those things you will never know....kinda like "which came first: the chicken or the egg." Two of life's great mysteries.
July 1, 2005
spiritstar14 (3:13:46 PM): Earlier... I was doing laundry, emptying the dishwasher, making jello, and talking on the phone all at once
BlackKnight1186 (3:14:16 PM): wow
spiritstar14 (3:14:26 PM): I know
BlackKnight1186 (3:15:52 PM): Earlier I was lisening to music, playing a video game, getting yelled at by my mom, and drinking water at the same time
BlackKnight1186 (3:16:19 PM): ive got skills
I did laundry for the first time today.
Now I am making brownies for mine and Clayton's trip to see KIDS IN THE WAY tomorrrrrrrrrrrrow :)
July 1, 2006
Happy 2 year anniversary livejournal ♥
Looking back on that...haha, wow. I was so young then...seventeen. So inexperienced with everything in the world. It's strange to see how much things have changed- and how I have changed.
My family is more amazing than ever. I couldn't make it through one day without them. They keep me going. I used to love going away from home...now I live for being in the country. I took my family for granted when I was younger and since I moved I cherish them dearly. I miss Nonnie so much ♥ It's been almost two years. I live each day to it's fullest and cannot wait for the day when I'll be able to see her again...
My friends are still the same. Drifted apart from some, gotten back with others, and gained many more. They're my backbone. When I'm scared, someone is always there to calm my fears. When I oversleep for my 8:45am class, someone is calling me to get my lazy ass up. When I can't find anything to wear on a Thursday night, someone let's me raid their closet until I find the perfect top. Lean on me when you're not strong.
My boyfriend. Words cannot even begin to describe how much he means to me. I've been fooled by relationships in the past, thinking each guy was THE ONE. Everytime I look at him, I know it's different this time. I have been fooled and played in the past, but not now. I love this boy. I really never knew what true love was until I met him ♥
Things are so different now. For the better.
July 1, 2007
It seems like every other day is a battle to keep my sanity, to do what's right, and satisfy everyone.
So when I'm given a chance to do something that I have dreamed about since I was 10 years old... should I go for it? Should I forget about everyone and everything that is standing in my way and reach for my goal?
Should I?
I'm scared.
I think I can do it.
I'm good enough to do it.
I have the determination to do it.
Just keeping my head held high and my prayers strong.
kara- thank you for being an amazing sister. thank you for keeping my secrets. thank you for being yourself. i love how close we've become. you are my best friend and i would not trade the world for you. you are always so understanding... except when i want to use the computer! i love you.
kasi/alicia/allie/anna/tyler- you guys are my backbone. my root. the strength that keeps me alive. i just think of y'all and all that we've been through... all the years of laughing and crying. come visit me now. i love you guys.
jenny/shalon/amanda- i would go crazy at school if it was not for y'all. you are the one who keep me sane during finals or drive me home after a crazy thursday night. it sucks because i haven't seen any of you! fix it. i love y'all.
logan- where do i even begin? your support for me started three years ago and has never faltered. thank you for always believing in me. you are the drive that i need and the smart ass i need to keep my temper in line. i'm sorry for my one week of being a stupid girl. i will make up that week with many more to come. let's sail away and find our own country. i love you.
July 1, 2008
Over the next few weeks, happy days will ensue. Allow me to go into detail.
30 June, Monday: Made my first trip to the "grown up" dentist. I've been at the same pediatric dentist since I moved to Alabama when I was 4. Being their oldest patient, they kindly gave me the boot.
3 July, Thursday- 7 July, Monday: This chica will be in Houston, reunited with her best friend Tyler who she has not seen in over a year. Here is how I feel about that...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9 July, Wednesday: My cousin/best friend/roommate turns 21. Oh yeah. Warped Tour makes its stop in Atlanta, GA. Attendiendo con mi hermana. Muy bien.
11 July, Friday: iPhone comes out. My true geek will be unleashed. Upon entering the Apple store this past weekend and playing with the device, I got slightly turned on.
11 July, Friday- 13 July, Sunday: My cousin/best friend/roommate's 21st birthday extravangaza. If you're cool, you'll be there. If you're not, you suck large furry balls of yarn. See one of us for directions. Bring tents, sleeping bags, clothes, and booze.
16 July, Wednesday: Jake has served his four years in the Marines and comes home :)
19 July, Saturday- 20 July, Sunday: Rush Workshop. Now this time last year, it would have not been on my "happy days" list seeing as how I ran all of them and nearly hung myself in my closet several times over the span of eight months. But I get to be with all my sisters that I miss more than words can describe. Snaps for us.
Hard to believe the summer is half over. I move back to Birmingham in a month and a half. Weiiiiiird.
Cooking, cleaning, laundry and with our house to myself it was nice for a week. Except for when I got scared and Kasi came to comfort me. I'll never be a housewife... I'd get too bored.
More thoughts later.
[EDIT] I realized that 04/05 look the same... 06/07 look the same... then 08 isn't. Weird how different I thought I was... guess my writing proves me wrong!
Looking back on the years... hah, I was pretty stupid at age 17. Starting writing right before shit hit the fan. Didn't document everything because I didn't think people could handle it. Hell, I could hardly handle it.
Alas, things today are swell. Here's a look back at the times. Senior in high school to a senior in college.
Now if only I could get a relationship to last this long...
July 1, 2004
i thought that i was strong i thought "hey i can leave, i can leave" but now i know that i was wrong, cuz i missed you
well kids, here i sit, my 10th night in lockport, new york. my time here- and its not up yet, 4 more days to go- has been everything i could have imagined. the people rock. period. ok, well there were a FEW little let-downs, but after the first 5 you learn to get over them quickly. and you know what else?.....i am REALLY going to miss Mighty Taco. and of course, i'll miss lexie, kelly, bailey, rory, andy, josh, andrew, bill, cousin ryan, mike, chris, laura, mary, kimberlee, terry, lyndsay, kim, sean, matt, dave, ryan, pumpkin....and oh yes, sterling. i won't be seein' ya'll for a while....but, for the remainder of the time i am up, it's gonna rock. this weekend is the 4th....can't wait. might get to see my FAVORITE band of all time, the OH so lovely and talented... GOO GOO DOLLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DarthasElvn: you are a senior now, what do think, hope that this year goes by fast?
SpiritStar14: yes and no
DarthasElvn: why yes and no
SpiritStar14: yes b/c i wanna be outta high school and no b/c im kinda scared about college
DarthasElvn: why are you scared?
SpiritStar14: i dont know how to do laundry :-/
what else is scaring me is the thunder outside....and i'm also contemplating HOW ON EARTH the sun is still out at 9 o'clock at night. guess its just one of those things you will never know....kinda like "which came first: the chicken or the egg." Two of life's great mysteries.
July 1, 2005
spiritstar14 (3:13:46 PM): Earlier... I was doing laundry, emptying the dishwasher, making jello, and talking on the phone all at once
BlackKnight1186 (3:14:16 PM): wow
spiritstar14 (3:14:26 PM): I know
BlackKnight1186 (3:15:52 PM): Earlier I was lisening to music, playing a video game, getting yelled at by my mom, and drinking water at the same time
BlackKnight1186 (3:16:19 PM): ive got skills
I did laundry for the first time today.
Now I am making brownies for mine and Clayton's trip to see KIDS IN THE WAY tomorrrrrrrrrrrrow :)
July 1, 2006
Happy 2 year anniversary livejournal ♥
Looking back on that...haha, wow. I was so young then...seventeen. So inexperienced with everything in the world. It's strange to see how much things have changed- and how I have changed.
My family is more amazing than ever. I couldn't make it through one day without them. They keep me going. I used to love going away from home...now I live for being in the country. I took my family for granted when I was younger and since I moved I cherish them dearly. I miss Nonnie so much ♥ It's been almost two years. I live each day to it's fullest and cannot wait for the day when I'll be able to see her again...
My friends are still the same. Drifted apart from some, gotten back with others, and gained many more. They're my backbone. When I'm scared, someone is always there to calm my fears. When I oversleep for my 8:45am class, someone is calling me to get my lazy ass up. When I can't find anything to wear on a Thursday night, someone let's me raid their closet until I find the perfect top. Lean on me when you're not strong.
My boyfriend. Words cannot even begin to describe how much he means to me. I've been fooled by relationships in the past, thinking each guy was THE ONE. Everytime I look at him, I know it's different this time. I have been fooled and played in the past, but not now. I love this boy. I really never knew what true love was until I met him ♥
Things are so different now. For the better.
July 1, 2007
It seems like every other day is a battle to keep my sanity, to do what's right, and satisfy everyone.
So when I'm given a chance to do something that I have dreamed about since I was 10 years old... should I go for it? Should I forget about everyone and everything that is standing in my way and reach for my goal?
Should I?
I'm scared.
I think I can do it.
I'm good enough to do it.
I have the determination to do it.
Just keeping my head held high and my prayers strong.
kara- thank you for being an amazing sister. thank you for keeping my secrets. thank you for being yourself. i love how close we've become. you are my best friend and i would not trade the world for you. you are always so understanding... except when i want to use the computer! i love you.
kasi/alicia/allie/anna/tyler- you guys are my backbone. my root. the strength that keeps me alive. i just think of y'all and all that we've been through... all the years of laughing and crying. come visit me now. i love you guys.
jenny/shalon/amanda- i would go crazy at school if it was not for y'all. you are the one who keep me sane during finals or drive me home after a crazy thursday night. it sucks because i haven't seen any of you! fix it. i love y'all.
logan- where do i even begin? your support for me started three years ago and has never faltered. thank you for always believing in me. you are the drive that i need and the smart ass i need to keep my temper in line. i'm sorry for my one week of being a stupid girl. i will make up that week with many more to come. let's sail away and find our own country. i love you.
July 1, 2008
Over the next few weeks, happy days will ensue. Allow me to go into detail.
30 June, Monday: Made my first trip to the "grown up" dentist. I've been at the same pediatric dentist since I moved to Alabama when I was 4. Being their oldest patient, they kindly gave me the boot.
3 July, Thursday- 7 July, Monday: This chica will be in Houston, reunited with her best friend Tyler who she has not seen in over a year. Here is how I feel about that...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9 July, Wednesday: My cousin/best friend/roommate turns 21. Oh yeah. Warped Tour makes its stop in Atlanta, GA. Attendiendo con mi hermana. Muy bien.
11 July, Friday: iPhone comes out. My true geek will be unleashed. Upon entering the Apple store this past weekend and playing with the device, I got slightly turned on.
11 July, Friday- 13 July, Sunday: My cousin/best friend/roommate's 21st birthday extravangaza. If you're cool, you'll be there. If you're not, you suck large furry balls of yarn. See one of us for directions. Bring tents, sleeping bags, clothes, and booze.
16 July, Wednesday: Jake has served his four years in the Marines and comes home :)
19 July, Saturday- 20 July, Sunday: Rush Workshop. Now this time last year, it would have not been on my "happy days" list seeing as how I ran all of them and nearly hung myself in my closet several times over the span of eight months. But I get to be with all my sisters that I miss more than words can describe. Snaps for us.
Hard to believe the summer is half over. I move back to Birmingham in a month and a half. Weiiiiiird.
Cooking, cleaning, laundry and with our house to myself it was nice for a week. Except for when I got scared and Kasi came to comfort me. I'll never be a housewife... I'd get too bored.
More thoughts later.
[EDIT] I realized that 04/05 look the same... 06/07 look the same... then 08 isn't. Weird how different I thought I was... guess my writing proves me wrong!