Feb 01, 2010 00:48
I think Im like a cat that goes into heat. When I dont want it I really dont want it but when I do I'll scratch a storm door down to get out and get some.
Christ. That was a horrible analogy ha ha ha ha ha
I get high. All the time now. I need it here to keep me sane. I'm relying on weed instead of her.
I miss being so sore I cant walk straight.
I miss those days when sex was enjoyable.
Lately it just feels like nothing is happening to my body to satisfy me enough.
What is that edge that i need? I just want to be railed
I feel like such a whore for having these feelings but honestly if someone came in here masked right now I'd fuck them regardless of who they were.
What is WRONG with me lately!? Thats a fucking repulsive thought.. but I'm having them.
I cant even remember the last person that has made me feel that I was having an out of body experience, where id have marks all over my body and not be able to get out of bed for days....