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What a fucking trainwreck of a weekend. It made me realize a lot of things.
Who should be trusted with a heart and who shouldn't.
Ive seen a lot of people from the past
I actually had no feelings of hate or regret but for some reason I felt the need to act it out. Why do I always do that?!
And my dog is chewing on my new envy shirt that was 80 dollars.
I cant belive I spent 100 dollars on a pair of jeans... I must be REALLY sad.
I hope I'm not like this when I have kids....
Zooey really wants this expensive shirt.
My little princess has expensive taste in chewtoys.
Her little neck tutu looks SOOO cute on her.
Im so on the border line of thinking about kids and, if I have a girl how I'm going to treat her. At one end I want her to be a frilly little princess but on the other end of it that idea repulses me. I think I have a dual gendered mind. *Sigh*
. I hope she can help me through this. I just want to have a stable mood. I know that obviously being normal doesnt include having a stable mood but.... I dont know. It just feels as though something else is going on there. Maybe its becuase I didnt take my meds for a few days this weekend. I go from being completely depressed to mediocre happy and just wanting to stay hom eand wtach movies to dissapearing for two weeks at a time and not keeping in contact with anyone that cares for me. Christ. I just want that to stop.