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i have been single for almost a year.
april 19th, 2009 will mark my 365 days of not being in a relationship.
this is a big deal for me.
i haven't been single this long in almost 6 years.
i'm so proud of myself.
i'm also kicking ass in school this semester.
i have grown up so much in the past year, i never would have imagined getting this far.
as sad as that sounds.
i thought that i was stuck in a rut when i was dating matt.
i really didn't think i would ever make something out of myself.
i hated who i was.
& i was depressed.
i have met lots of different people since i've been in grand rapids.
and i have felt a lot of different emotions towards those people.
but, none as strong enough as how i'm currently feeling for someone.
someone who just recently came into my life.
i don't want to say too much because i REALLY don't want to jinx this one.
i want nothing more than to fall into a deep, passionate, trustworthy love.
no drama.
no losing myself again.
please be sincere.
please be real.
i'd like to think i deserve this.
i would be so so so so happy.