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Man it has been a rough couple of days and its not gonna be over anytime soon. My aunt is in the hospital again. Which just has me all depressed and taking out anger on people who really don't deserve it. I wanna be by myself so I don't say something im going to regret but I wanna be around someone who will make me feel better even if its just for like 5 minutes. I dunno as I type this my aunt is getting the surgery done and to be completely honest i have a horrible feeling about this one.
I love how people want me to talk to them about my feelings and whats going on in my head. Then I start to open up to them...just alittle bit I don't even go into details and they ask me to stop cuz its making them sad. Well of course its going to make you sad cuz its not good stuff.
I don't need to talk to a shrink. What i need is an honest male who is not my friend to tell me whats wrong with me. If your my friend you are going to be bias so I can't talk to you about it..
I just wish I understood myself. I really don't get me at all. I have to realize one someone's mind is made up I can't change it. Well at least quickly. Good things take time to develope they don't happen in 4 hours on a snowy Friday night in a driveway.
What else? I work the next 4 days...blah..Don't wanna work anymore. Once Im there Im fine its just knowing that I have to get up and go there...
I love how people want me to talk to them about my feelings and whats going on in my head. Then I start to open up to them...just alittle bit I don't even go into details and they ask me to stop cuz its making them sad. Well of course its going to make you sad cuz its not good stuff.
I don't need to talk to a shrink. What i need is an honest male who is not my friend to tell me whats wrong with me. If your my friend you are going to be bias so I can't talk to you about it..
I just wish I understood myself. I really don't get me at all. I have to realize one someone's mind is made up I can't change it. Well at least quickly. Good things take time to develope they don't happen in 4 hours on a snowy Friday night in a driveway.
What else? I work the next 4 days...blah..Don't wanna work anymore. Once Im there Im fine its just knowing that I have to get up and go there...