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Well, I haven't updated this thing in a week so you would think i would have a lot to update about. Of course not.
To be honest i haven't been doing a lot the past couple of days. Just sitting by myself thinking. I always prided myself as that person who would think before they talked and think before taking any type of action. Lately all that logic has gone out the window. It needs to come back and I need to think about what is going on here. My gut feeling tells me I know exactly whats going on but I just don't wanna believe it. I am just to the point now that I am so unfixable and so broken I need to stop looking for the supposed Mr right. He is not out there for me. This is the point in time where I say fuck it, cut my loses and move on. I wish I could magically know how many times i have posted this same exact post and say this time I really mean it.
I really should just move to California. Whats here for me? My family but is that really enough to say in one place my whole life.
To be honest i haven't been doing a lot the past couple of days. Just sitting by myself thinking. I always prided myself as that person who would think before they talked and think before taking any type of action. Lately all that logic has gone out the window. It needs to come back and I need to think about what is going on here. My gut feeling tells me I know exactly whats going on but I just don't wanna believe it. I am just to the point now that I am so unfixable and so broken I need to stop looking for the supposed Mr right. He is not out there for me. This is the point in time where I say fuck it, cut my loses and move on. I wish I could magically know how many times i have posted this same exact post and say this time I really mean it.
I really should just move to California. Whats here for me? My family but is that really enough to say in one place my whole life.