i don't know why all my thoughts come early in the morning...
*edit*
new livejournal: http://www.livejournal.com/users/bernert007
*********************************************
lately, due to some recent events, i've been examining how i've been living my life and i'm sad to say that i'm not happy with how things are going. i could say that i've got all kinds of crap going on with me and that that's causing me to be how i am, but that's no excuse. i'm the only person who has control of my actions....no one else. i've been a christian for 7 years and in those 7 years i've done SO MANY things that i'm not proud of and not ONCE have i repented or shown any type of remorse for my sins. we discussed yesterday in bible class what causes many people to stay in sin and not receive the blessing of eternal life. do you know what causes people to do that? pride. and i'm very much guilty of this.instead of me turning to God lately when i've needed him most i've turned away thinking that i can handle things myself, which obviously isn't true. i've let the influences of the world just take me over and i'm willing to bet [if i were a gambling person] that if Jesus came back today, i'd be on a one way ticket to hell....which is so where i DON'T want to go. it's like my heart has been hard all this time, but it took these recent events for me to realize that i'm not happy with my spiritual life, and that i need to change for the better. i'm feeling guilt. i'd rather do stuff like this in person, but i don't see some of you people a lot so as i close out this entry i'd like to take the opportunity to apologize for all the profane and hurtful things i've said towards any of you. i should have handled situations face to face and in a calm manner instead of spewing off hurtful and vulgar things. i truly am sorry and i hope you all will will forgive me.
new livejournal: http://www.livejournal.com/users/bernert007
*********************************************
lately, due to some recent events, i've been examining how i've been living my life and i'm sad to say that i'm not happy with how things are going. i could say that i've got all kinds of crap going on with me and that that's causing me to be how i am, but that's no excuse. i'm the only person who has control of my actions....no one else. i've been a christian for 7 years and in those 7 years i've done SO MANY things that i'm not proud of and not ONCE have i repented or shown any type of remorse for my sins. we discussed yesterday in bible class what causes many people to stay in sin and not receive the blessing of eternal life. do you know what causes people to do that? pride. and i'm very much guilty of this.instead of me turning to God lately when i've needed him most i've turned away thinking that i can handle things myself, which obviously isn't true. i've let the influences of the world just take me over and i'm willing to bet [if i were a gambling person] that if Jesus came back today, i'd be on a one way ticket to hell....which is so where i DON'T want to go. it's like my heart has been hard all this time, but it took these recent events for me to realize that i'm not happy with my spiritual life, and that i need to change for the better. i'm feeling guilt. i'd rather do stuff like this in person, but i don't see some of you people a lot so as i close out this entry i'd like to take the opportunity to apologize for all the profane and hurtful things i've said towards any of you. i should have handled situations face to face and in a calm manner instead of spewing off hurtful and vulgar things. i truly am sorry and i hope you all will will forgive me.