I hate this time of year...
and no, not because of the weather. because THAT is a beautiful thing.
I hate this time of year because (even though I know I CAN) I continually feel like I can't.
I can't make it another month.
I can't pull 4 nights in a row on 3 hours of sleep and take a test each morning.
I can't handle ignoring the dirty dishes in the sink because they're not mine and I need to study.
I can't find peace.
But I know, just like every other semester, it'll be over before I know it and then I can sleep for three days straight (or something like that). And this semester is not like the rest. Part of me rejoices in the fact that I will be done with (this part of) school forever and I am opening a new door to my life. Part of me is thrilled that it will be one month closer to the wedding and moving into our sweet new apartment.
But then I think of all the faces I've grown so accustomed to seeing every day and knowing that they're not going to be there. And I think of all the things at Calvin that I've always wanted to get involved with and never did.
But I can't live in regret. I just have to hold my head up, work hard, and try to make the best out of every last minute.
then I get a kitten!
the end.
I hate this time of year because (even though I know I CAN) I continually feel like I can't.
I can't make it another month.
I can't pull 4 nights in a row on 3 hours of sleep and take a test each morning.
I can't handle ignoring the dirty dishes in the sink because they're not mine and I need to study.
I can't find peace.
But I know, just like every other semester, it'll be over before I know it and then I can sleep for three days straight (or something like that). And this semester is not like the rest. Part of me rejoices in the fact that I will be done with (this part of) school forever and I am opening a new door to my life. Part of me is thrilled that it will be one month closer to the wedding and moving into our sweet new apartment.
But then I think of all the faces I've grown so accustomed to seeing every day and knowing that they're not going to be there. And I think of all the things at Calvin that I've always wanted to get involved with and never did.
But I can't live in regret. I just have to hold my head up, work hard, and try to make the best out of every last minute.
then I get a kitten!
the end.