you make me feel fucking worthless
For so long your what kept me from going to my kitchen late at night and stealing utensils from that one drawer that should have been locked, from past experiences...
Last week i was living without a computer.
As much as i thought i would hate it, i actually
didnt miss it. I read two really awesome books.
It just kinda gave me some time to think about
stuff, and that was a good thing. I desided to
change things about me, and deal with things
differently. I think this will be better for
everyone. I now seem to catch myself being the
quiet one, which doesnt mean im in a bad mood.
Im just thinking.
It is now spring break and I sit here and try to
remember last years spring break, but cant. From
last night i can tell that im not going to have a
good spring break. Becuase someone who is a best
friend wont even look at me. It crushing. Nothings
like it once was. Even my realtionship with my
family has changed. "Everything has gone back to
nothing"
Shana is gone and that sucks. i spent the night
over her house last night. we wanted to stay up
the whole night and talk, but i feel dead asleep
like 10 minutes after paul and eric left. I woke up
at 1 to find shana on the computer, but just feel
back asleep. Right after school shana and i went
down to the beach, and went to this youth gruop thing,
on 67th street. It was awesome, i got to see some old
friends. After that was done i was in a great mood.
The boys plus nicole megan minus matt and josh, were
down at the beach to, so we met them and just walked
around. Let's be optimistic about this.
Its Jos[hua]s birthday on Sunday. Happy Birthday. I
hope you liked your gift.
Last week i was living without a computer.
As much as i thought i would hate it, i actually
didnt miss it. I read two really awesome books.
It just kinda gave me some time to think about
stuff, and that was a good thing. I desided to
change things about me, and deal with things
differently. I think this will be better for
everyone. I now seem to catch myself being the
quiet one, which doesnt mean im in a bad mood.
Im just thinking.
It is now spring break and I sit here and try to
remember last years spring break, but cant. From
last night i can tell that im not going to have a
good spring break. Becuase someone who is a best
friend wont even look at me. It crushing. Nothings
like it once was. Even my realtionship with my
family has changed. "Everything has gone back to
nothing"
Shana is gone and that sucks. i spent the night
over her house last night. we wanted to stay up
the whole night and talk, but i feel dead asleep
like 10 minutes after paul and eric left. I woke up
at 1 to find shana on the computer, but just feel
back asleep. Right after school shana and i went
down to the beach, and went to this youth gruop thing,
on 67th street. It was awesome, i got to see some old
friends. After that was done i was in a great mood.
The boys plus nicole megan minus matt and josh, were
down at the beach to, so we met them and just walked
around. Let's be optimistic about this.
Its Jos[hua]s birthday on Sunday. Happy Birthday. I
hope you liked your gift.