how can you expect me to live alone with just me ?
i dont know where i am .. where im at .. all i know is, i cant handle anything now. dont come to me for help, my mind is not in place. dont talk to me, my mouth has a life of its own. dont expect me to listen, my ears only listen to the screams of pain inside of me. as much as i try to satisfy, i can never truly satisfy myself. why is it that i must always put others before myself or else be burdened with this weight of guilt. why is it that i get nothing in return ? out of all the "gifts" why did God give me this. i dont have the strength to turn someone down when in need. i dont have the strength to do about anything now. what is wrong with me ? good question. let me know when you know the answer, maybe thatll help me get through whatever im trying to get through. is it that i lost a friend? i didnt lose one, i left one. hm, maybe thats it. i need to create peace within myself. within the people that i can never get along with. ha, yeah right. im no miracle worker. what do i want ... who do i want .. what do i need, who do i need ? so many questions left unanswered. i wish there was some person that can tell me the answer to all these questions .. who will tell me what to do instead of learning it the hurtful way. someone save me from this ... i wanna smile and actually feel good inside.