My crazyness

[kristakat]

Where do we go from here?
Where do we go from here?
The battle's done, and we kind of won,
So we sound our victory cheer.
Where do we go from here?

Why is the path unclear?When we know home is near

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you're right.

[kristakat]

I do fear change, but not all change. Some changes are good and some are bad. It the EXTREME changes that scare me. Like when life gets turned upsidedown overnight. I feel like I've had more than my share of world tilting events and I'm just tired of feeling like I have no control over my life.
As far as opportunities popping up, haven't had a lot of that either. I just feel like I'm dead in the water. Nothing is coming to me here. Noone is going to knock on my door and offer me an amazing job. The love of my life is NOT going to come knocking on my door and tell me I'm the one and he's always known. I just want to be able to initiate the change in my life for once. Instead of life as I know it being ripped from my grasp I'd like the opportunity to change it into something better before the shit hits the fan.

If I had just one shot, just one opportunity to sieze everything I've ever wanted whould I capute it? No. I would let it slip. If I captured EVERYTHING I've ever wanted and all of my wildest dreams came true, other people would get hurt in the process. And that's not something I'm willing to live with on my concious. So now I wait. and see what the future brings. Because the here and now, sucks. My hope lies in the future. I look forward to the upcoming changes in my life.