i dont fucking know any fucking more!!!!!
Seems like Derek has been ignoring me latly but hey ...i know he doesnt fucking care...I went to do Geography work today...and my dad came home..and i had been working on my Geo shit for a while and he shut me down that fucking basterd..so i ran upstairs to my computer and the den/comp room was messy and my sis and mom have been begging that i clean it up..so im sitting there all by myself and my sis walks in and goes can i have the computer? while im fucking slaving away..im like hold on ill get off in a min. So she sits down on the chair i pick up my backpack and put it conviently behind her then i hear a fucking big ass smash! So i turn around and the little fuck head threw my fucking back pack with my glasses and CD player on the fucking floor.
So now im really pissed and she goes someone is sitting here you just dont fucking do that! So i punch the shit outta her and she stands up and runs into our room fucking crying! i dont fucking know what i did but w/e.. Sop any way i go back to my back pack to see what the smash was..and turns out she fucking smashed my CD player up!!!! It wont work..thank god it wasnt my good one that i always use!!! >:-O So now it wont work..and I finished cleanin my throat is throbbing and my head fucking feels like its gunna fall off and explode..i cant stand up im so fucking dizzy! O and did i mention i puked about 6 times today..from lack of sleep/rest and Stress!?!?!
Which leads to my next problem on friday there was a dance..and it got too full or what ever and they wouldnt let anyone in or out..my friends were some of the few people who couldnt get in!thats not my point..i asked out Steven earlier in the week..And he told me that he didnt want a girl friend but as soon as he did he would tell me...so im all excited cuz i brought him Ariel and Dylan to the dance..So yea im getting excited cuz he was flirting with me all week and putting on axe just because i like the smell and totally being a romancer..so we git to the dance..and im slow dancing with him trying to forget all about the bad things that were happening and..he stops dead in his fucking tracks walks over to Jessica Pastula and asks her out...RIGHT IN FRONT OF FUCKING ME!!!! She -with my luck- said yes! So they are sitting there grinding all night and shit...so its time for my mom to drive everyone home- Dylan Ariel and Steven- So i run to the car git in the front seat and slam the door..then turn the music really loud..i was pissed and my mom was all like ooo you can tell you didnt eat anything all day ur a bitch!..So i just sulk in my seat and open my window and sing as loud as i can to block out the rest of the fucking world....Steven gits outta the car and i say bye just so my mom wont yell at me..then Dylan told me how bad he felt for me and shit..and heather and michelle told me that acctually everyone told me that...at the dance..But Dylan told me that he thought what steven did was wrong...
Now on Saturday Dylan called me like he always does and we talked for 5 hours on my cell phone until it finally died...But he told me he went to Stevens house and he was talking about Jessica -the g/f- and dylan some how got into...if you were to rate Jessica 1-10 what would it be...he said Steven said he would rate her a 9.99...then Dylan goes what would you rate Krista and he fucking gave me a fucking 3!!! O well..its his fucking lose!! Dylan told me a lie..that made me so upset i puked...the lie was that He talked to Derek and derek told him that he secretly liked me...and then i was like Dylan if ur lying to me i will be deeply hurt..and he goes...Oh..and i was like are you lying and he goes ...Im sorry ...and i was like you fucking asswhole..but i puked and i felt better....so im not fazed by that anymore...
On sunday first Dylan and i got in a fight and then Shelley and i did ..but those wounds are healed ..but still will be scars...I stayed home yesterday and today from school...I dont know if im gunna go tomarrow...Derek has signed on sooo much and now im not even gunna bother to talk to him..i think hes really annoyed so i fucking give up!!! I had a pretty damn awful weekend...why the fuck am i even writing this i doubt anyone will read this far!! Well im tried of typing...Derek I dont know if you'll ever like me..but i understand why you dont im not worth it at all..i fucking suck at life...im out!
So now im really pissed and she goes someone is sitting here you just dont fucking do that! So i punch the shit outta her and she stands up and runs into our room fucking crying! i dont fucking know what i did but w/e.. Sop any way i go back to my back pack to see what the smash was..and turns out she fucking smashed my CD player up!!!! It wont work..thank god it wasnt my good one that i always use!!! >:-O So now it wont work..and I finished cleanin my throat is throbbing and my head fucking feels like its gunna fall off and explode..i cant stand up im so fucking dizzy! O and did i mention i puked about 6 times today..from lack of sleep/rest and Stress!?!?!
Which leads to my next problem on friday there was a dance..and it got too full or what ever and they wouldnt let anyone in or out..my friends were some of the few people who couldnt get in!thats not my point..i asked out Steven earlier in the week..And he told me that he didnt want a girl friend but as soon as he did he would tell me...so im all excited cuz i brought him Ariel and Dylan to the dance..So yea im getting excited cuz he was flirting with me all week and putting on axe just because i like the smell and totally being a romancer..so we git to the dance..and im slow dancing with him trying to forget all about the bad things that were happening and..he stops dead in his fucking tracks walks over to Jessica Pastula and asks her out...RIGHT IN FRONT OF FUCKING ME!!!! She -with my luck- said yes! So they are sitting there grinding all night and shit...so its time for my mom to drive everyone home- Dylan Ariel and Steven- So i run to the car git in the front seat and slam the door..then turn the music really loud..i was pissed and my mom was all like ooo you can tell you didnt eat anything all day ur a bitch!..So i just sulk in my seat and open my window and sing as loud as i can to block out the rest of the fucking world....Steven gits outta the car and i say bye just so my mom wont yell at me..then Dylan told me how bad he felt for me and shit..and heather and michelle told me that acctually everyone told me that...at the dance..But Dylan told me that he thought what steven did was wrong...
Now on Saturday Dylan called me like he always does and we talked for 5 hours on my cell phone until it finally died...But he told me he went to Stevens house and he was talking about Jessica -the g/f- and dylan some how got into...if you were to rate Jessica 1-10 what would it be...he said Steven said he would rate her a 9.99...then Dylan goes what would you rate Krista and he fucking gave me a fucking 3!!! O well..its his fucking lose!! Dylan told me a lie..that made me so upset i puked...the lie was that He talked to Derek and derek told him that he secretly liked me...and then i was like Dylan if ur lying to me i will be deeply hurt..and he goes...Oh..and i was like are you lying and he goes ...Im sorry ...and i was like you fucking asswhole..but i puked and i felt better....so im not fazed by that anymore...
On sunday first Dylan and i got in a fight and then Shelley and i did ..but those wounds are healed ..but still will be scars...I stayed home yesterday and today from school...I dont know if im gunna go tomarrow...Derek has signed on sooo much and now im not even gunna bother to talk to him..i think hes really annoyed so i fucking give up!!! I had a pretty damn awful weekend...why the fuck am i even writing this i doubt anyone will read this far!! Well im tried of typing...Derek I dont know if you'll ever like me..but i understand why you dont im not worth it at all..i fucking suck at life...im out!