shoot me now
I got an award at school today for Overall Outstanding Student today...so yea im happy for what ive done and..finally someone fucking shows that i am doing some good in this fucking world..but i got home and went to show my dad...He said Well ur not overall outstanding at home are you..and hes like dont be too proud of urself its just a peice of paper...that just fucking ripped out my heart..im so upset now..i finally got some recognition and NO ONE fucking cares...I'm not that bad of a kid am i? Im sick of trying to make ppl proud or happy..so im just gunna stop and isolate myself from the outside world..i fucking got an award...I AM fucking proud! Damn straight! But when anyone starts putting me down..maybe they will start paying attention or wish they had when im gone...I know you ppl think its fucking bullshit that i "love" Derek WELL FUCK YOU! I dont need ppl putting me down..plus i never said i was in love i just said i really liked him! So fuck u..anyone who has ever doubted me...or fucking said something or talked behind my back FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!I'm only here to do my job then fucking die!!! Well maybe if God was real he would fucking help me through this shit! I cant take all this pain and suffering! I'm dying inside! U PPL ARE KILLING ME! EVERY PERSON IS KILLING ME! my fucking dad is killing me..and if God doesnt kill me soon i might have to take matters into my own fucking hands! NO fucking JOKE! So if you read this, this is my resignation, this is my last word to anyone who wants to listen if you wanna fucking save me leave a message if you wanna me to die leave me right here to die IM OUT!